What do you know now VS then?

Christinajoannne · Mar 7, 2015

If I could go back into the past, I'd wish I would have known not to be...so hard on myself. To tell myself, "It's okay. It's okay to make mistakes. It's okay to not to be okay. School's hard, and you're amazing, keep on going. Keep on pushing through. It'll all be worth it soon." Nursing school kicked me hard in the face for about two years, almost, entirely destroying all semblances of any self-esteem I had. I was self-conscious and nervous. Before nursing school, I was so incredibly shy! I couldn't even ask about things like "Where's the bathroom?" I ALWAYS compared myself to others, "How come she can do this basic skill and I can't? Am I really that incompetent? Am I really that stupid? Everyone must think I'm so stupid." I wish I could go back and shake my past self and scream "No. You aren't incompetent. You're a student! AND YOU'RE LEARNING! IT'S OKAY TO NOT BE AN EXPERT AT THIS." I wish I was easier and kinder to myself. Nursing school taught me many things...and no I don't mean all that knowledge that those nursing books force into your brain...but it taught me to grow a backbone, to be more kinder to myself, and to remember that God is always with us