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So I started nursing school back in 2021 and did well up until 2022 in which I failed a course. After failing I then had to prove competency by testing into each course that I had previously failed in order to restart where I left off in fall of 2023. I came back and everything was fine I passed fall semester. I then started Spring semester which was my last semester of nursing school. We had preceptorship and clinicals but they were separated so I did the second half of the semester preceptorship. Before beginning my preceptorship I had a meeting with my preceptor and explained that I suffered from emetophobia but that I would try to push through if she worked with me. Some time passes and everything is going well but one night my preceptor seemed "off" and not in a good mood. She argued with me over a patient because she asked me to go into a room where a patient was vomiting and I told her I'd feel more comfortable if she came with me in which as a student that was her job anyways. (I know I'll be exposed to vomit I know what comes with the job but this is a mental disease not just something I feel is "gross" but I'm willing to work through it to become a nurse). After that happened another nurse asked if I'd like to get practice with NG tube placement and I told her I'd have to ask for permission from my preceptor. Once I approached my preceptor with the offer she stated "you can just go be with that nurse because this'll probably be the last night I precept you" After the incident I called my instructor who was over the program and let her know what happened. She instructed me to ask the preceptor if she wanted me to leave so I did just that and the preceptor said "yes" so I left and called my instructor. That night the nurse and I both explained what happened separately and the next day I received a call from the DON at the school in which she told me I did nothing wrong and I handled it like I was supposed to so that they would just find me another preceptor. Well the next day the DON at the facility I precepted at wrote a nasty email with lies which could only come from the nurse in which leaded to me getting in trouble. I had ti meet with the board and was placed on probation but I also no longer had anywhere to precept and get my hours because the DON at the facility made it to where I couldn't precept there but she said I could do clinicals which went the same. I was lost so I met with HR at the hospital and explained everything with hopes she could help me and she said she could, it seemed as if the meeting went well until the next day she emailed the school and said I couldn't return to the facility and that I was "disruptive" to the point she had to leave a meeting and basically calm me down in which I can promise you that was a lie. After that I was removed from the program in the last week with only a final left, the day I found out I was being kicked out my instructor whom I called the night everything took place at the facility asked me if I had spoken poorly of her in which I said no. This same instructor works at that facility, she also was an instructor to the nurse who precepted me and is now her coworker. It was very strange the way it happened. Well luckily when I failed out I challenged the board of nursing and got my LPN license but it's only single state and now I have no idea what to do. I can't find a program in the state I reside in to accept me because I'm licensed in another state. I've looked for LPN-RN classes and I've even tried to transfer my nursing classes. Every way I turn I'm stopped and this is all I know and all I have ever wanted to be. I don't know what else I can do I feel like such a failure right now.

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I am so sorry you are going through this. I am dealing with a not so great new grad nursing situation too through NCSBN. Nursing school is so stressful and hard and we get burnt out before setting foot into our careers. 
have you tried contacting the national board and asking for some direction/advise? 
not sure how it works where you are, but here in Canada we can apply into a bridging program and your previous courses will get assessed and you will receive credit for what you've already taken.

wish you best of luck. Don't give up. Keep calling every number and speak to whoever you can that will listen. Call the schools and make an appt with an academic advisor in person if possible. Explain your situation. Be persistent and resilient. 
 

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Before someone even tells you what went wrong, do you know what went wrong?

You literally challenged your preceptor, your instructor, and your DON. Whether you meant to or not, you did. You left your clinical without meeting with your preceptor? You just messaged your instructor? You met with the HR of the hospital without the school? On top of that you have a phobia of vomit or emesis? 

I'm very sorry, but all things considered, yes, find another career. I'm sure you're hardworking and wanting to help people. Go into social work. Or PT. Or ultrasound. Or respiratory (there is occasional emesis with this). Or biomedical. Get out of nursing. 

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RNMoxie said:

Before someone even tells you what went wrong, do you know what went wrong?

You literally challenged your preceptor, your instructor, and your DON. Whether you meant to or not, you did. You left your clinical without meeting with your preceptor? You just messaged your instructor? You met with the HR of the hospital without the school? On top of that you have a phobia of vomit or emesis? 

I'm very sorry, but all things considered, yes, find another career. I'm sure you're hardworking and wanting to help people. Go into social work. Or PT. Or ultrasound. Or respiratory (there is occasional emesis with this). Or biomedical. Get out of nursing. 

I don't feel my post was read correctly, I didn't challenge anyone. My instructor and I had a phone call where I was told to ask the preceptor if she wanted me to leave in which she said yes. The next day even the DON at the school said that I handled it correctly so that she would place me with another preceptor. The problem came in when the DON for the facility lied for her nurse and wrote a nasty email and as a desperate nursing student and mom of 4 who sacrificed everything I had to become a nurse the answer is yes, I met with HR in hopes I could get my hours to graduate. I suffer from a fear of emesis but I'm working through that which I never kept it a secret from day 1. This is what I love, this is what I will stick to even if it requires me to start over. I'm already a nurse and already in the career but I sat and decided to continue this journey well after this post but thank you for your input.

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Emmie80 said:

I am so sorry you are going through this. I am dealing with a not so great new grad nursing situation too through NCSBN. Nursing school is so stressful and hard and we get burnt out before setting foot into our careers. 
have you tried contacting the national board and asking for some direction/advise? 
not sure how it works where you are, but here in Canada we can apply into a bridging program and your previous courses will get assessed and you will receive credit for what you've already taken.

wish you best of luck. Don't give up. Keep calling every number and speak to whoever you can that will listen. Call the schools and make an appt with an academic advisor in person if possible. Explain your situation. Be persistent and resilient. 
 

Here in the states some programs do allow you to bridge but my license is single state which means I'd mainly only be able to do it in that state and I've had trouble getting into schools so I'm deciding to just start over. Also, I'm sorry you're going through that I hope everything works out for you and yes! Sometimes I feel like they try to weed us out through nursing school with how hard they make it.

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You got this! If nursing is your calling follow your heart. Push through all barriers. You got this. As for your phobia, focus on working through that first. As nursing is not going to be clean sleigh ride( you probebly know that already). You got this. You will be a RN. You will overcome this phobia. You got this. 

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Emmie80 said:

You got this! If nursing is your calling follow your heart. Push through all barriers. You got this. As for your phobia, focus on working through that first. As nursing is not going to be clean sleigh ride( you probebly know that already). You got this. You will be a RN. You will overcome this phobia. You got this. 

Thank you so much for your encouraging words it means a lot

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