I don't know how to start this off. I just had an emotional breakdown yesterday and I'm having another one while typing this because I don't know why I'm majoring in nursing other than my mom pressuring me into the field and the money and job security are extremely promising. I'm from California and I'm surrounded by nurses in my family. I guess it's being broke my whole life and trying to find a way to get out of it is what makes nursing so appealing to me. Other than that, I can't find another reason why I should enter this field. I couldn't care less about any of the prerequisites. Not to mention California schools are competitive that people start moving out of the state. The thought of that makes me feel sick. As for the field itself, human and bodily fluids and blood make me extremely uncomfortable and I don't have the patience to deal with aggressive patients that will find any chance to grope you. And I don't even know what else I want to major in, it's like I'm at a dead end. I guess you can say all I care about is having money and getting out of the shady neighborhood I lived in my entire childhood and being able to afford things I've always wanted. I don't know what I'm trying to do with this post other than letting out my feelings. Well, what about you guys? What makes you stay in nursing despite the horrible parts of the field that looks like it outweighs the good parts of it? I try to tell myself that the money and the three days-twelve hour shifts is worth and I should stay, but I don't think that's working anymore, seeing as I just bottle all these feelings I have in me any longer. I'd really appreciate it if anyone can help in some way, whether it's kind words or advice, because believe me, I need it.