Thursday June 5th 2025

No Stars In My Eyes · Jun 5

It is Thursday, and do I really have to ask, "Guess who is not coming to sit with Nannie today?!" Yeah, Chatty CG called me about the time she was supposed to be arriving, and said she has a bad cold and an ear infection, and you can tell just by hearing her talk. There was also a person in the background when she called me, who was also honking, coughing, and sneezing. I'd say she has a houseful of germs over there at her house! 🙄 We don't want'em HERE!

Nannie, of course, was hoping she is going somewhere, but alas, it is not to be. 😫 She asked what she was going to do, and I said "Nothing. Maybe you can nap." I sure hope so. Her eyes are closed and her face is frowning. OH WELL! (My inner face is frowning, too.) Twice she has opened her eyes and asked me what she is doing today, is she going anywhere? No, no, and NOPE! If she doesn't conk out and nap, we'll just be twiddling our thumbs, and I reckon I will be just installed on the sofa as usual. *sigh* Maybe at some point I can sneak upstairs and do the dishes. Have to do some laundry, too (so what else is new?) Plus I have kilt-ded some more flies. Gee, when are they all going to be GONE?! And, Thursday is the day I gather more trash and take the bins out for pick-up tomorrow morning. A full day of fun and PHOOEY-times!

It rained HARD last night and this morning. Haven't checked the weather report yet, to see what else is going to happen weatherwise. But it makes no difference, really. I did my errands yesterday so I don't have anything to go out for today. I HAD planned to spend the day in my room. I mean, some of what I was hoping to tackle has all been on hold for so long it hardly matters what *I* want to do anymore. At least tomorrow is another Senior Center Day for Nannie, so that is good.

It is really a shame her short term memory is SO short!. When I brought her in yesterday, she had no sooner sat on the recliner for three seconds, when she pointed out at the car she had JUST gotten out of, and said ,"Is that here for me?" That she had been gone ALL DAY didn't even occur to her. She is perpetually ready to take off, and it doesn't matter to where or for what reason. That's why I think we should hire a limo and a driver, to just drive her around all day.....but it wouldn't matter actually, because as soon as she was brought back she would not remember being out! Them ol' amyloid clusters are a damn shame.

Okay, I better DO SOMETHING, because I don't have anything 'new!" to add here that you haven't already heard before!

Got to wash Momo's 'clamshell' bed, as it is now graced with many little spots of blood from her being in heat. She's stopped with the coughing, though, so that's good. Suppose I "ort-to" gather laundry and get that going, anyway. Oh, housekeeping is soooo fulfilling. I feel like I should be dressed like Mrs. Cleaver, in a shirtwaist dress, heels, and pearls! (QUELL HORRORS!)

No Stars In My Eyes · Jun 5

It really, REALLY, REALLY annoys me when Nannie just sits there and looks at me ALL. OF. THE. TIME. If I look up at her, she smiles. Why? What am I supposed to do, smile back? Sometimes I say "WHAT?!?" but get no reasonable response. I often want to yell out, QUIT LOOKING AT ME! It is RUDE to stare!" I want to get a heavy drape and hang it from the ceiling so I am not visible to her! (I want her to go to sleep, but she isn't looking the least bit sleepy.) Once I even told her that I was not a TV set and I wasn't her "entertainment", but that was way-while ago. I once told her that she had to pay me 50 cents for every piece of dry laundry she watched me fold. She laughs like I am being funny, but I am serious! I would re-arrange the furniture in the den if there was any way to have me blocked from her view or her blocked from MY view!

Reckon I am being a bit sensitive after falling under her scrutiny for so many years? All I can tell you is..... it makes me insane! INSANE, I TELL YOU! 😱 😝 😖 🤮 As my grandfather used to say, "Keeeey-ripes!" I know it sounds KOOKY to be so bugged by her watching me all the time. I wish I could make obnoxious faces and loud noises and throw stuff at her, which is pretty unreasonable, but I am G-G-G-GO-WING NUTZ!

Okay, so time to shift my gears.....or something! I will turn on the TV so Nannie's attention will be drawn elsewhere. Then I will go up and wash the dishes. I really don't want to take a Xanax, I just want the atmosphere to shift away from me.

Booga-booga-booGAH!

No Stars In My Eyes · Jun 5

Dishes done, laundry winding up its last cycle before the dryer, and I took the trash bins out to the road. Nannie didn't want to watch TV, but I left it on anyway. Momo's bed has been washed/dried, and boy-oh-boy she looked ecstatic when I popped her into it , warm from the dryer.

Oh gosh. Now Nannie wants me to explain all the "headlines" from the opening of the network news.

I'm out of here!

nursej22, MSN, RN · Jun 5

hello. It's a pleasant day here. I've been outside doing a bit of gardening: repotting a large plant, watering, trimming back a bush, snapping off spent blooms. I had a PT appointment this morning. The PTA who's been working with me seemed surprised when I said the pain was gone. So she did the paint scraper thing on my calf, had me do some exercises to see if I could tolerate a jog, plus the usual stretches. I am hoping this PT business will be wrapped up next week. They are nice enough, but it's so mind-numbing boring. If I can tolerate wearing an athletic bra in the morning, I'm going to try a little jog.

Then I had to go see my PCP, we reviewed my meds, he tsk, tsk'd about my broken clavicle, and offered me more pain meds, but I think I'm fine. And he renewed my PRN Xanax prescription, of which I took only a few last year. He agreed that benadryl is not a great sleep aid.

I've been trying to wear the arm sling, if nothing else to keep dh happy. But now I've got it all dirty from wearing it in the garden. oops.

Joe, I'm glad your dad's TEE timing went so smoothly. I hope his results are good. I've never tried valerian. Perhaps I should.

Ado, I hope your trial is finished and you can get back to life. I was on jury duty for a murder trial, but I asked to be excused because it was when my heart got all wonky, and I was afraid that I would have to delay treatment for a trial.