This made my day (kinda long)

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Specializes in HH, Med/surg- liver & kidney transplant, ortho, ++.

I'm in my second week of nursing school. This summer has been super busy for me. I got married, day before the wedding my cat died, went on our cruise, moved 2 weeks later (nursing school is 2 hours from where I used to live), and am now separated from my husband because there isnt much work out here for him.

So to say the least things have been super stressful for me. My husband and I have never really spent a night apart except an occasional one here and there. So that has been super hard on me. Now that I am in school I have something else to focus on rather than him not being here.

Anyways, I had a total melt down, small anxiety attack yesterday. Didn't hyperventilate or anything but it wasn't fun. I couldn't concentrate on my reading, I was eating popcorn and felt like I couldn't get it in my mouth fast enough. I chewed it quicker than I could put it in my mouth. Then I started crying, felt sorry for myself, felt like I couldnt do this, it is too much for me I am going to fail out of it, I am not smart enough, etc., etc.

So I took a 1/2 xanax (prescribed medication BTW, I have anxiety disorder) called my good friend and she talked me through it, calmed me down and gave me a little bit of encouragement.

I had a test in skills lab today so I figured I would go to bed early. I got like 7 hours of sleep last night (I haven't been sleeping much either). Didn't get as much studying done that I had wanted to but I thought sleep would be more important. So I got up, got ready for class, had a cup of coffee, some toast (one with PB for the protein) and a glass of milk (not a big breakfast eater BTW, so basically made myself eat). Had a little time left over to look over my notes before leaving for class then off I went.

Took the test, to my suprise I didn't find it too horrible. A total of 33 questions and I got ALL of them right!!!!!! So today is a good day for me. I feel a lot better about nursing school now and feel like I can make it through this.

I know that this is the first of many tests and I am sure the first of a few melt downs here and there but I made it through my first test, and did WELL. So I wanted to give myself a big pat on the back and share with evveryone my success today.