Struggling New Grad Looking for Advice

[StormyRN95]

Hi there everyone!

I graduated from nursing school in May and I've been a nurse for 3 months where I've been working on an oncology/med-surg floor. I was a student on the floor in April and I completed a preceptorship there so when I applied to the hospital for the New Grad program I was told "it's this position or nothing" so I accepted the position because it's an opportunity for experience, even though oncology is not where my heart lies. I thought this was a bit strange from the start because two of my best friends from nursing school landed their dream jobs because they were given a long list with many different facilities and floors (we work for the same company).

So even though I wasn't completely elated about my position, I accepted it with appreciation and told myself that I may learn to love it and gain confidence as I go. I'm now off of orientation, 3 months have past and I'm still unhappy. I have nothing against oncology but my floor is oncology/palliative/med-surg overflow and it's a lot to deal with. I've been receiving patient loads with patients requiring chemotherapy and 5 patients without an aid. I feel like instead of my days getting easier and becoming happier, I'm finding myself becoming burned out and dreading work everyday (which scares me because I've only been a nurse for 3 months!).

Lately my managers have been pressuring me to become chemo certified, which is something I don't want because I don't see myself working there past a year. Now that my rant has ended, I'm really looking for some advice. I'm wondering if I could possibly transfer to a different floor or unit now that I'm done with orientation? My heart lies in wound care and ED nursing but I never got the chance to voice what I wanted. I just don't know what to do.

I'm tempted to just ask to see what my options are if it means my happiness and the worst they can say is no! Then I would just stay on my current unit for a year and then quit and find a different job but I don't know how much longer I can last. Any advice?