Stressed out

[winnowill]

I feel like I'm being pulled in a hundred different directions at once. First my dad was diagnosed with a bone cancer back in November. I was doing good at driving the 2 hour trip at least twice a month until March. I've been twice since then.

My grandmother is sick now. Lives the same 2 hour drive away. I haven't been able to go see her yet. The doctors say she could have a major stroke at any time because of a clogged artery in her neck but won't do surgery because they are afraid she will have one on the table.

My oldest child lives with her dad. I have every other weekend visitation. I haven't seen her in 2 months because the every other weekend I'm supposed to have off I'm not getting. I'm working 5 days a week with a mix of 8 and 12 hour shifts because there are not enough employees at this time to fill slots.

I have two children at home both very young. I feel tired all the time. Even when I'm home I just feel tired and don't even want to leave the house. Can't make any plans in advance for the next month because our schedule for the next month doesn't come out until the last day of this month. Worried about my dad and grandmother. We have 1 car that my husband and I share. I'm slacking on the housework. (No I don't do it all)

I don't know if leaving and finding another place to work will fix any of this. I've thought about it but not sure. I feel guilty about not seeing my daughter. And she has started complaining about it saying she doesn't feel like she has a mom anymore. My mother is starting to get onto me about not going and seeing my family that is sick. And my husband is worried about me being stressed. (Gee you think)

So as someone on the outside looking in, what would be your opinion as to what I should do? I'm at a loss I guess because I am so close to it.

[yooper13]

Two words: New job. Is it your problem that there are not enough employees right now? Is it worth risking your health and sanity to pick up on your employer's slack? ...I would be going nuts too...