winnowill

Thank you everyone. I ended up going back for 1 day and had an anxiety attack not even 2 hours into the shift. Told them I wasn't coming back in until at least friday. Have an appointment with my doctor tommarrow. So nope, couldn't handle it. I haven't been there long enough for FMLA. Not really worried about the no money part of it. It is covered.

My husband has kind of said the same thing. "Maybe you should go see a doctor. I would say you're out in left field but you are out of the ballpark." He thinks with the way I'm acting I'm going to end up making a big mistake with someone if I go back. He keeps asking me if I'm alright and I don't feel anything but this uneasy feeling. If I cry it's only for a few seconds and I shut down again. I thought I should be crying all the time or yelling at god or something. And then the big wigs at work acted like it was going to be such a putout because I asked for 3 more days off. I don't want to be fired but I'm scared I may kill someone. Maybe not that drastic but with this job who knows.

My father just died last week from complications related to multiple myeloma. My mom and I were in the room and watched him pass away. I have to go back to work but I am afraid I won't handle it. His death was awful to watch. He started bleeding from his gums and we spent the last 4 hours suctioning him constantly. I see it all the time. I can't get it out of my head. Any advice on how I can handle this?

I turned in my 2 week notice which included my last day I would be working. Turned them in to my unit manager, Human Resources, ans staffing. (Policy was to turn into the unit manager but I turned it into the other two because of the tendency for things to "get lost")

I feel like I'm being pulled in a hundred different directions at once. First my dad was diagnosed with a bone cancer back in November. I was doing good at driving the 2 hour trip at least twice a month until March. I've been twice since then. My grandmother is sick now. Lives the same 2 hour drive away. I haven't been able to go see her yet. The doctors say she could have a major stroke at any time because of a clogged artery in her neck but won't do surgery because they are afraid she will have one on the table. My oldest child lives with her dad. I have every other weekend visitation. I haven't seen her in 2 months because the every other weekend I'm supposed to have off I'm not getting. I'm working 5 days a week with a mix of 8 and 12 hour shifts because there are not enough employees at this time to fill slots. I have two children at home both very young. I feel tired all the time. Even when I'm home I just feel tired and don't even want to leave the house. Can't make any plans in advance for the next month because our schedule for the next month doesn't come out until the last day of this month. Worried about my dad and grandmother. We have 1 car that my husband and I share. I'm slacking on the housework. (No I don't do it all) I don't know if leaving and finding another place to work will fix any of this. I've thought about it but not sure. I feel guilty about not seeing my daughter. And she has started complaining about it saying she doesn't feel like she has a mom anymore. My mother is starting to get onto me about not going and seeing my family that is sick. And my husband is worried about me being stressed. (Gee you think) So as someone on the outside looking in, what would be your opinion as to what I should do? I'm at a loss I guess because I am so close to it.

Does anyone know the minimum CNA staffing requirements for LTC facility in Tennessee? Just curious. I tried looking it up but I can't find it. Probably not using the right wording.

Wow. There is no way I would work for $10 and hour. I'm having a hard enough time working for what I do now.

When you actually have something planned to do after work (Dr. appt) someone will fall at shift change.

I applied and was hired 1 month before graduation. Worked as a cna until I passed boards. But that was 10 years ago.

Oh no I didn't go into detail when I had to explain why I left. I pretty much said we mutually parted ways. I wasn't what they were looking for and I wanted to use more of my skills than I was. So I told LTC.

Since she said she was going to sue the company with her cell phone pictures it was either get fired or resign. I had been written up once in the two years I was there for not keeping the house clean enough. Another time I was talked to because the house was so clean mom was worried I didn't pay enough attention to her child.

Surveyor came to check my cart. I've been off for 3 days but had just cleaned it and all before I left. Of course now it's a mess. Things together that shouldn't be. Then I guess I was so nervous after that I left my cart unlocked. Had to do my walk of shame to get my drawer back. So as I was leaving the surveror had my MARs and charts pouring through them. Guess after what they already found I'm a good target. Today has sucked.

Union? That's a dirty word in my facility. But I sure do miss it.

Thanks. I wasn't sure how to word it. I'm thinking I need a change from LTC before I get burned out. I love the LTC population but the workload stresses me out so much. When I'm not putting in for private duty I find it makes some curious and I got interviewed once because she wanted to know what it meant.

Congrats! Hope we do that well.