Ok, I am working on pre-reqs for ADN nursing school. I decided to get into the CNA class to get some experience and also work part time while in school. My hope is to work for a hospital for the experience. Anyway, today I completely felt like a total air head b/c I thought the B/P cuff was leaking air. The instructor had to come and show me I had the knob turned the wrong way. I was just not prepared today and very distracted. When called on and the spot light was on me, I felt myself get very nervous and red in the face and shaking. My voice was shaking also. I felt stupid. I think that my instructor noticed and everyone else too.
I didn't think I was going to get into the class b/c of the money. I have had a lot of stress going on right now from money to my grandmother being placed in ICU for the 2nd time and now facing open heart surgery. I didn't have my books b/c the store hasn't been open etc. Luckily I was not the only one and it was not a requirement for the first day. I just wonder if I am smart enough for nursing. Am I kidding myself? I think the demons from the past are showing up whispering in my ear that I am not smart enough or able to finish this. I am normally pretty outgoing and do well in large crowds, but smaller ones are hard for me. Especially when I am on unfamiliar territory. I almost thought of dropping the class. I just think stress and pms/hormones have gotten the best of me today. Am I crazy? Any advice?
