So Discouraged!

[AlsoSharonRN]

Hello...I'm in the same boat...diverted narcotics, reported to law enforcement and BON. Surrendered my license in lieu of a formal proceeding...(and my license was already on probation prior to this for non-drug related issues) I just wasn't up for facing the trauma of going before the BON again! Supposedly, a first time offender in Virginia can possibly have charges reduced to a misdemeanor. I am very frightened and feel so alone! Imy not sure it would even be worth it to pursue reinstatement of my license...no one is going to give me a chance, so why set myself up for more heartache? I love nursing...been a nurse for 28 years, and it's part of my identity. Now I just feel lost and very stupid.

[luvnlvn]

I'm sorry for what you're going through. I have no words of wisdom but I am going through similar circumstances. I surrendered my license last month as part of my stipulated settlement. I was offered the chance to surrender, have a defense hearing or enter into a stipulated settlement. I chose the settlement because I wanted to work with the BON but wasn't aware my state doesn't offer drug diversion for LVNs. So I had to surrender my license anyways. I was caught stealing a fentanyl patch from a discharged patient and was high at work and tested positive for 4 drugs without a prescription. The only difference is I escaped criminal charges.. although I don't know how or why..

Just wanted to let you know you're not alone... this is by far the absolutely most devastating thing that has ever happened to me, and I caused/created all of it. I've been in healthcare for 20 years and was a nurse for 12 of those years. I feel lost and cry a lot. I do janitorial work for minimum wage.. I'm a mother and was the breadwinner.. it's awful.. I can apply for reinstatement in 3 years but don't know if I should even try. Who will want to hire me? Why should they? And if I ever want a professional license in another field unrelated to healthcare this will follow me. My case is all over the internet. I have so many friends and former colleagues and it's so embarrassing. Please try and keep your head up. Good luck to you! (Hugs)