Self reflecting..

[malaikaRN]

I work per diem as a MEDSURG nurse in a smaller hospital and so we see all sorts of disease processes, people of all ages are admitted to our floor. The learning opportunities are endless in this setting (and quite frankly, intimidating). I am reaching my 6 month mark, but before this I had also worked 6 months in a snf. So I guess that magical one year anniversary is approaching but I don't feel competent. I still ask questions constantly, I suck at Iv's, I panic (to my credit only on the inside) during emergencies, I constantly worry over whether I did everything I was supposed to (did I chart that? I did those bs checks right?) I'm my worst critic I know. One of the nurses I trained with was so kind and helpful to me but she told me shortly before I started on my own "trust me, floor nursing will burn you out in a hurry"... It's as if those words were a pox-- the truth and reality of her statement haunt me. I am currently looking for opportunities away from bedside nursing, it nearly brings me to tears to say this-- in hopes of not completely regretting me decision for pursuing this career in the first place. I always find comfort here, reading all your experiences and stories, it is my only true outlet in moments where I feel like I'm losing myself. Thanks

All for listening.

[LadyFree28, BSN, LPN, RN]

It takes about 2 years to get used to thinking like a nurse, as well as honing your nursing judgement and skills.

You work per diem...if you are working less hours it may always be a feeling like "a fish outta water", unless you have more regular hours; also working anywhere for 6 months is not enough time to get your sea legs either.

Do you use brain sheets? Search here on AN for brain sheets, they help with organizing a nurses shift and thoughts.

Something to keep in mind about advice( you have the power to Lear from advice, and adapt and approach it to your betterment; if you feel the negative, it's almost like Murphy's Law...learn to use tools while keeping yourself in check.

If you feel distressed, look into seeking professional help, as well as hobbies or interests that will help foster relaxation; if you desire "non-beside" positions, understand that some places want at least 2 years experience; there are some employers that are willing to train, but very few; it will take an extensive search-it won't hurt to research these options while continuing to hone your practice.

Best Wishes.