Scared and anxious rolled into one!

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Hi everyone,

I'm a 35 year old female who's extremely scared to go back to school. I started out at a university right out of high school and did well the first year then life happens. Thinking you've met the one, etc etc...get married...end up divorced.

In all honesty I really didn't think about going back to school. I've actually done very well without getting a degree but lately my job hasn't felt like "home" to me as it once did.

There are days when I think I'm going through some mid life things...a life altering moment.....then I think...do i really want to go back to school???

While in college I was a nursing/premed major. I knew I had the brains to deal with it but my emotions got the best of me and I let go. There is no one else to blame but myself for not finishing school.

So here I am today. I've applied to the juinor college in the county I live in and am getting anxious and scared that i'm going to be attending classes with students who are fresh out of high school. Can I compete? Will I do well? Financially can I afford it????

The nursing school does have a wait list but in my gut i know this is where I want to be. With my current job, I go to the hospital when we have emergencies and i see all the nurses and doctors and can't help but not think about..."WHAT IF...."

Wow, i'm ranting......if you happen to read this and have advise for me, please let me know. Thank you for taking the time to read.

Much success to all the students out there who are accomplishing their dream!!

Specializes in Telemetry and Psych.
i just started back at my community college, doing my pre-reqs. at the ripe old age of 49, i am the old coot of my classes. but there are at least 7 other people in both of my classes that are in my range of cootiness. :lol2: plus a whole range of late 20s to 30-somethings. and you know what? they are the most motivated, most serious students. sure, some of the recent high school grads have had science lately, but boy, are they un-wise. they tend to slack, not be serious, skip class, yack and text while the professor is lecturing, etc. so find fellow "nontraditional" students, hook up with them as lab and study partners, and you will do just fine. before a test, my phone rings off the hook with fellow coots asking great questions about the material. we help each other. plus, we're staving off alzheimer's! (at least i hope so!)

:lol2:omg you are too funny. i loved the last line!! i'm definitely taking your advice on finding the non traditional students to be study/lab buddies with. i really do want to finish what i started and be the nurse that i know i can be. i've been in the medical field too long to know where i belong. i know it's early to talk about where i would like to see myself working in...but i love the cardiac units, critical care, etc.

how about you? have you thought about where you see yourself?

allieinaz,

first of all, congrats on your decision to "finish what you started". i was in the same boat as you. at 31, i have decided to go back to school and fulfill the dream i had as a kid to be a nurse. it will be worth it. i just recently got accepted at a hospital school here in pa. i know what you are saying. other posters have gotten it correct. it's not the high schoolers you have to worry about, it's the nontraditional students like you and me. i think what happens and i know from my own experience...when you are young and in school, you don't take it as seriously as you should(party, hanging out, not studying). now that i'm older, i kick myself and think about what could have been if i had only stayed in school. i now take school a lot more seriously and i have a 3.875 gpa to show for it. it's part of the maturing process. i look at others my age who have a college degree and a bigger paycheck and wonder why i dropped out to be with "the one" who didn't turn out to be the one. my wife now has been so supportive and she is ready for the sacrifices that will start in january but she knows in the end we will have a better life. i wish you luck on this adventure and enjoy the ride!!!

take care,

b

thank you b for the encouraging words. i'm definitely seeing myself in the better state since i've made the decision to go back to school. work has become dull and monotonous. i wish you the best of luck with you and your family.

and always remember......when we put our minds to it, we can achieve anything......

hugs all around!!

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