Saturday March 29th 2025

No Stars In My Eyes · Mar 29

Going to be 80 degrees today, and mostly cloudy, but there is some weak sunshine trying to cancel the clouds.....not altogether too successfully, but I don't mind.

Last night I woke up an hour after I fell asleep, and decided to finish the crossword puzzle I'd started but felt too tired to complete, earlier. Then I turned out the light again and slept well until about 11 AM, when I got up to feed Momo and make a cup of coffee for me. Then I dozed a bit and when I picked up my coffee cup, it was cold! Took my meds and put a lower-back wrap on my aching back, and doused my poor ol' knees with Lidocaine roll-on. Thank goodness those efforts help decrease the aches to be either mildly tolerable, or better yet, GONE!

Then it is time to roll my eyes, as Nannie does her Southern-Belle-speak: "Ohhhh, Hunnie, what's the maaaatter? You are limping!" I tell her every day when she makes that remark, "it's okay, I have arthritis and I take medicine for it", and I get an "Ohhhh, I am SOOOO SORRY you have to go through that." in a faux-sincere voice. I didn't say that my arthritis is not the cause of my trouble; she oozes sympathy over it, but......it is HER: the 5 ft 1 inch GIANT of a P.I.A. Though not her fault, it still is like a burr in my saddle and a bee in my bonnet, and any other metaphor that is applicable. Honestly, I didn't think it was possible for her attention span and memory to decrease any further, but it has and it continues to do so, incrementally, yet definitively. She now can't tell the difference between the tray in her lap and the small table-lamp beside her. If I mention to 'put her spoon down' on one of them, she looks everywhere EXCEPT at the tray or the table, and does not realize she is still holding the spoon, long after finishing her yogurt. Not important in the long run, so I don't know why I try to get her to do that, except when she starts to stir the cranberry juice and spoon it into her mouth, it is one of her 'things' that makes me feel frustrated and Kray-Z. I have decreased the # of remarks I make while we are watching TV, or riding in the car, or doing anything, because......how many times yesterday did she say "What, hunnie?" to me? And even when she was staring at the TV, she doesn't realize or understand what her unseeing eyes are 'looking' at.

My horror-scope sez that there may be a LOT of tension between me and .... has to be Nannie, because I don't have a boss! It said I needed to keep it to myself and "take it out in the gym." So, I guess I am doing my "reps" here on-line, instead of in a gym! In other words, same-old-same-old! And the Xanax script has been refilled so I'm ready for it! Ppfftt!

Have started Nannie's laundry, then called the dealership to tell the service guy the #'s on my tires, which I thought I left him a message about yesterday. Anyway, he wanted to know the BRAND, and I said I didn't know, but they weren't the cheapest OR the most expensive. I said I wanted them to last a while and not give me buyer's remorse with the price.. I have that coupon for "buy 3, get the 4th one for $1.".......which I am sure will still get them a good profit ..... I go Monday to have them put on the car and will probably have sticker shock anyway, as they also have to do an alignment (which *I* think should be an automatic NON-CHARGED labor as part of the cost of the tires, because what dealership would put on tires and leave it at that?) Nickles and dimes, nickels and dimes.

I "lost' my phone yesterday or last night.... and searched the house but to no avail. Then this morning I went out to search the car, and thankfully it had only slid waaaay up under the driver's seat. I was wondering how I could call the places I went to yesterday to see if the phone had been turned in, but then, DUH, how can I call if I don't have my phone? But all's well that ends well. I just put it on the charger. Checked my messages and I really didn't miss ANYTHING important. That's okay, I have an aversion to using a phone much, but it is a necessity these days. Blah. Now I am wondering again if I need to get one of those "help, I've fallen and can't get up" things. Maybe Nannie's budget would cover the cost? I'll have to ask BiL about that.

Nannie is sitting on her hands, and for a long while she sat staring out the window.....with the usual morning scowl. Then she was staring at her shoes and I thought, dear God, PLEEZE don't let her start in about the shoes! Would be nice if that 1/2 Lexapro she gets makes her drowsy. I always look to see if it is a fat half tablet, and if it is, that makes me feel good! Oooooh, her eyes are closed and her head is doing a slow tilt over to her right shoulder. That's my cue to put a small pillow behind her neck and lower the back of the recliner and cover the length of her with a bath-towel, something she often does if she 'can't find' one of the three shoulder-wraps in the chair right beside her.

I have to stick up for myself and say that when I worked with patients like her, I didn't get irritated or feel as put-upon as I do here. This "shift" has definitely been going on TOOOOO long. But day after tomorrow she goes back to daycare for 8 or so hours, so there is hope in my lifetime, 😑 as the old saying goes!

Like my sister used to tell me (and I, her) at night, when we shared a room: "Shut up and go to sleep." But since it is not nighttime and I am not physically tired, I'll just hush my puppies and sign outta here.

Toodles!

Tweety, BSN, RN · Mar 30

G'day.

Hope J22 is having a good trip!

Not much going on today. Worked and had a decent day. Slept good. Still feeling not 100%.

Hope everyone has a great day.