Okay I'm sure I'm not alone here. But feeling overwhelmed by everything so I thought I would make my own post. I hope this isn't too redundant. If you've all answered these questions a million times over, I sincerely apologize. I am simply surrendering though, I just don't know where to start with this journey.
I graduated with a BSN in 2008, I was 23 at the time. Took the NCLEX one time (in NYS), did not pass. I was a good student, got decent grades, overall did well in school. But those months after graduation I just felt a huge disconnect. I didn't put everything I had into studying. I didn't think I was in the field for the right reasons, I didn't think I was good enough. And so on and so forth..At that point in time I had a lot of existential crises happening, you know, blah blah.
Let's fast forward 8.5 years later. Here I am. I am now a Licensed Massage Therapist, which I actually love a lot. I kind of became an LMT to try to see if I could bridge the gap with the amount of time you get to spend with patients. One of my issues with nursing (granted I know I was only ever a student nurse) was that I felt rushed with each patient. I wanted more time to spend with patients. I thought massage therapy would be a great way to focus individually on clients and really be able to connect. My goal with massage was to bring it to medical settings to promote relaxation in a stressful environment.
I have been doing hospice massage as a volunteer for awhile now and absolutely love it. I also work at a spa as my "regular" massage job, which has its ups and downs. But being in the hospice setting has lately made me feel more drawn to nursing again. As I get older I also can't help but feel drawn to a more stable career path. Massage certainly has a lot of great points, but it is not a super stable income. I don't have any benefits either. I mean I knew that going in, but here I am feeling a little more pressure to have more stability in my life.
I am thinking about attempting to re-take the NCLEX and maybe see if I can just keep my options open in regards to possibly re-entering the Nursing world. Aside from pathology, A&P, kinesiology that I studied while in my 1000 hour massage program, I really haven't done anything with this information in nearly all the time since graduating. I haven't studied meds, nursing theory, anything. So if you were me, where would you start? I do plan on contacting the NYS Board of Nursing to see if I need a refresher course to take the NCLEX. Even if I didn't need a refresher course, I would take one anyway. Because I haven't set foot on a floor in almost 9 years and it would probably be like the very first day of med-surg clinical all over again.
Would you - take a refresher course first, take an NCLEX review course, then attempt the exam? How long do you think I should allot for studying/refreshing before taking the exam? I know everyone is different and it really depends on how motivated you are. Well I would be willing to even dedicate a full year to studying before I felt comfortable taking the exam again. I could continue doing my massage and also dedicate many hours/week to studying. I think it's probably doable right? What percentage of people who do this actually succeed? Does anyone know? Also, does anyone know if my chances of getting hired again are pretty limited based on all this time off? I guess I'm looking for anyone who has any stories to share, advice, suggestions. I really believe my heart is still in the right place - to nurture and help others. At 23 I just didn't know what my life was, or what I wanted.
Any thoughts or suggestions or stories or advice is all welcome. If you've made it this far reading, god thank you for staying with me!!
Donna
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Okay I'm sure I'm not alone here. But feeling overwhelmed by everything so I thought I would make my own post. I hope this isn't too redundant. If you've all answered these questions a million times over, I sincerely apologize. I am simply surrendering though, I just don't know where to start with this journey.
I graduated with a BSN in 2008, I was 23 at the time. Took the NCLEX one time (in NYS), did not pass. I was a good student, got decent grades, overall did well in school. But those months after graduation I just felt a huge disconnect. I didn't put everything I had into studying. I didn't think I was in the field for the right reasons, I didn't think I was good enough. And so on and so forth..At that point in time I had a lot of existential crises happening, you know, blah blah.
Let's fast forward 8.5 years later. Here I am. I am now a Licensed Massage Therapist, which I actually love a lot. I kind of became an LMT to try to see if I could bridge the gap with the amount of time you get to spend with patients. One of my issues with nursing (granted I know I was only ever a student nurse) was that I felt rushed with each patient. I wanted more time to spend with patients. I thought massage therapy would be a great way to focus individually on clients and really be able to connect. My goal with massage was to bring it to medical settings to promote relaxation in a stressful environment.
I have been doing hospice massage as a volunteer for awhile now and absolutely love it. I also work at a spa as my "regular" massage job, which has its ups and downs. But being in the hospice setting has lately made me feel more drawn to nursing again. As I get older I also can't help but feel drawn to a more stable career path. Massage certainly has a lot of great points, but it is not a super stable income. I don't have any benefits either. I mean I knew that going in, but here I am feeling a little more pressure to have more stability in my life.
I am thinking about attempting to re-take the NCLEX and maybe see if I can just keep my options open in regards to possibly re-entering the Nursing world. Aside from pathology, A&P, kinesiology that I studied while in my 1000 hour massage program, I really haven't done anything with this information in nearly all the time since graduating. I haven't studied meds, nursing theory, anything. So if you were me, where would you start? I do plan on contacting the NYS Board of Nursing to see if I need a refresher course to take the NCLEX. Even if I didn't need a refresher course, I would take one anyway. Because I haven't set foot on a floor in almost 9 years and it would probably be like the very first day of med-surg clinical all over again.
Would you - take a refresher course first, take an NCLEX review course, then attempt the exam? How long do you think I should allot for studying/refreshing before taking the exam? I know everyone is different and it really depends on how motivated you are. Well I would be willing to even dedicate a full year to studying before I felt comfortable taking the exam again. I could continue doing my massage and also dedicate many hours/week to studying. I think it's probably doable right? What percentage of people who do this actually succeed? Does anyone know? Also, does anyone know if my chances of getting hired again are pretty limited based on all this time off? I guess I'm looking for anyone who has any stories to share, advice, suggestions. I really believe my heart is still in the right place - to nurture and help others. At 23 I just didn't know what my life was, or what I wanted.
Any thoughts or suggestions or stories or advice is all welcome. If you've made it this far reading, god thank you for staying with me!!
Donna