I'm just wondering if anyone else has similar concerns, or has gone through something like this themself.
2.5 years ago, I had a stillbirth. Needless to say, it was very traumatic. I found out that my son had passed away at 36 weeks and opted for an elective c-section. To me, a lady partsl delivery just wasn't an option, it was too upsetting.
I'd thought of nursing as a potential career before then, but since having that experience as well as some subsequent blood clots and having some really awesome care from my nurses, my desire to pursue nursing solidified. However, I was (and still am) afraid. I think everyone has something that worries them when they think about nursing. Blood, mucous, stool, vomit, needles, etc. Yes, those things are slightly concerning to me as well, but what I am really afraid of is being there for the delivery of a stillborn. Not before the baby is born, not after the baby is born, but the actual delivery. Obviously due to my personal experience, it would bring up alot of my own grief and I am very scared of the idea. Now, I have NO intention of going into L&D - ever. But I know that regardless, I am going to have to do an L&D rotation in nursing school (please correct me if I'm wrong), and that while doing my clinicals, I may find myself in that position. I know that if that happened, I would deal with it. But how gracefully, I don't know. So I'm thinking about it now, just in case.
Does anyone have anything like this - a personal trauma they are afraid of reliving while in nursing school or as a nurse? How do you think you will cope? If anyone is in nursing school or is a nurse and has any actual experience, I'd love to hear it.
nocheapones
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I don't mind at all. His name was Braedan.
And you are exactly right, so don't worry. I got what you meant :) That is my hope.