I'm a nurse with lupus. I was first diagnosed May of 2013, and I'm 36 years old. When I first went into remission, I thought ok, I can handle this, work will be fine, no problem. But now I'm not so sure. I'm currently having a flare up, it's my third one since being diagnosed, and this one is the worst one yet. My joint pain is so bad, I am having extreme fatigue and weakness, I'm having headaches, and something I've never had before which is this burning pain in my chest and back when I breathe in, which is weird. I decided I had to take off work for the week to rest and recouperate. On top of all of that, I have bipolar disorder and I'm having a pretty bad depressive episode, which is being made worse by how I'm feeling physically. I'm starting to question how long I'm going to be able to do bedside nursing, but I don't really know what else I would do. I still need to get my BSN, so that limits me right now on jobs. It won't take me long to get my BSN, but I'm also wondering if I shouldn't just do the whole RN to MSN. I don't know. What I do know is I feel miserable, and I hate it. I'm already burned out as it is at my job. I'm just lost. Sorry to vent and be so negative, I just don't know what else to say and I don't really have many people
to talk to in my life, certainly not many that understand.