Not sure I'm in the right RN school or is it me?

[wannabenurse69]

Hello,

I posted awhile ago about my clinical instructors saying I appeared to be stressed. I continued to go back and got good grades. I'm in my 1st semester and in a private catholic nursing school. Monday is my last day as I will be taking my final. I went back and acknowledged my stress with one of my clinical instructors and decided that I'm going to remain in the program but take summer and fall off to finish my prereqs. I have a bunch of kid, live with my parents since I got divorced, my dad has brain cancer....Anyway, something about that school is really bothering me. I've noticed that the instructors have their favorites and I'm not one of them. Today, for example, one of the clinical instructors gave out her "business card" in front of the class to 3 students for "future recommendations". I don't get it. I have worked my a-- off in clinicals, deeply care for my clients, even have been an advocate for them. All of this has been unnoticed by the instructors. I feel like I have put in so much effort and it hurts to see others get recognized when I don't. I look at these "students" and I don't see what they have that I don't. Is this typical of nursing schools? I don't mean to whine but for some reason this type of thing ticks me off.

[BeenThereDoneThat74, MSN, RN]

did you receive your evaluation yet? I wouldn't go into detail asking her "why don't you like me", rather ask her where she really feels you need improvement. If she says you're doing fine, then ex[ress your concerns, as diplomatically as possible. And be open to her criticisms (hopefully they will bw constructive).

I doubt that it is just your school. Granted, instructors should not be playing favorites, but does happen, just as it does in the workplace. Certain personalities tend to gravitate together. Are you not as outgoing as her favorites? I'm not saying it is right, but the reality is it happens sometimes.

[Jedi of Zen]

I chose to enroll in the school that I'm at because everyone at the hospital that I work at has always said that it's the best school in this area, produces superior nurses, etc. etc. I'm now in my 2nd semester of the program, and while I'm not going to say that I regret it by any means, I think I have had a few moments somewhat like what you've described. Sometimes during clinicals it seems like instuctors and students alike are just BSing their way through everything, and they just laugh about it like it's nothing. And then when a very trivial problem arises (either in clinical or in class), suddenly it's world war 3. It's actually kind of scary, to think that people's lives are in the hands of some of these people. But I'm only a freshman, so I just trust that the instructors know what they're doing... :uhoh21: