I thought I did everything right in nursing school. I maintained a high GPA, worked as a nurse aide for a year, sat on the Board of Directors for a medical non-profit, volunteered like crazy, joined honors societies, professional nursing organizations, and completed a preceptorship. I passed boards and I am completing ACLS, PALS, and NRP.
Like most new grads, I have made finding my first RN job my full-time career. I thought the gods had finally smiled upon me when I was granted an interview for a new grad residency program at a large academic teaching hospital in my first-choice specialty. I was more than ecstatic and more than happy to fly the 5,000 miles and spend several hundred dollars of my own money to fly in for the interview.
I thought the interview went great. I really loved the team, I worked a 4 hour shift on the floor, and I thought everything went great. There was one question I really wish that I had answered better, but all in all, I thought I had done really well.
I tried really hard not to get my heart set on the place as I try with each interview. But I did. I envisioned living there, telling everyone that I got the job, the immense relief of not having to look anymore, and I thought about the excellent training that I knew I would get at this institution.
To get the rejection email this morning saying I didn't get the job was just heart-breaking. Now I'm going to have to tell my friends and family the sad and disappointing news. Its so hard not to take it personally. It's so hard not feel like I failed in some way. And when you don't get any feed back it leaves you constantly wondering what you could have done to have been chosen.
When I went back to school to be a nurse I never, in a million years, imagined the hardest part was going to be finding a job. It's so hard to remain positive in the face of so much competition and so much rejection. I just had to share my sadness and disappointment. I hate when you get your hopes up only to have them dashed...