This is going to sound crazy and shallow and aweful, but working in the nicu as an RN has made me afraid to have children of my own. I need to know if this is normal or if I am really insane. I love the babies at work and I am excellent at my job going above and beyond to meet their needs and help the families but I wouldn't be able to handle that life full time 24/7 for the rest of my life. I know we see the worst case scenario and most pregnancies/deliveries go well and everything is fine but even just the chance it could be not fine is too much. It is to the point where both my boyfriend and are talking about either not having kids at all or just adopting.