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[newRN611]

So i just graduated with a BSN degree in 2011. I am on my last 3 months of orientation. However, I was not able to find a job until 6 months later at a rehab hospital. Because it has been 6 month and I have a really short term memory, I feel like I forgot almost everything I learned in school. When patients asked me questions or when I am in a situation that involves critical thinking, such as looking for sign and symptoms, i feel so lost and stupid. I should know these things because I learned it. I feel so overwhelmed. i cant seem to get my information together, my preceptor told me that my reports sounds a little choppy when I have to give a report to a doctor. And the doctors get frustrated at me because they have to repeat themselves. Im a little quite and shy as well therefore it makes nursing a harder for me. I'm starting to question rather I am fit to be a nurse. I come home feeling really sad and disappointed in myself. I need some advice. =(

[GitanoRN, BSN, MSN, RN]

first of all, happy nurses week~. with that said, don't be so hard on yourself, none of us seasoned nurses began with the knowledge that we have acquired over the years. furthermore, give yourself some credit you overcome the grueling nursing program and passed the nclexrn plus landed a job. unquestionably, all nurses at one point or another have doubted themselves in any given scenario, this doesn't mean that we are not competent. having said that, not every single doctor has the knowledge of all specialties, the same goes with us nurses, nursing is a continuous process of learning each day and as the years go by we acquire our experience. moreover, this is the reason why it's called experience, as i quote from a wise man "experience is simply the name we give our mistakes" oscar wilde. in regards to your style of giving report or the lack of, try emulating those nurses that you so admire, in no time you'll acquire your own personal signature of giving report. unquestionably, don't refer to yourself as "stupid" be patient and learn as you go. at this level, when it comes to getting over your shyness this also requires a definite mastering of one's self confidence, what you believe of yourself it will portray to others. i have no doubt, that in time you to will come out of your shell and shine triumphantly. wishing you the very best in all of your future endeavors... aloha~