hi all, new nurse here with literally a few shifts on my own. what i feel is very frustrating is that i have no idea how i am doing? i have gotten a few 'great job tonight' from my charge RN's when i feel like i have barely kept afloat. i feel like the expectations for new nurses are so vague; mixed messages are abound! 'you're not going to know everything' and 'it takes time' to 'you need to pick up the pace' etc. i work on a telemetry floor and it is overwhelming. how can you tell if you are doing a decent job as a newbie nurse? this may seem odd, but literally i feel i have no litmus test. i am not a youngn' and this isn't my first 'real job' yet i feel like i am learning to walk and talk all over again. i keep hearing it takes a while for the 'critical thinking' part to come, and i suppose this coincides more so with experience, however how do you practice as safely as you can if you are just task oriented in order to just learn the routine?? right now i am operating at ABC's is my pt. breathing? alert to whatever their baseline is? the nervousness is overwhelming and nauseating. i worry about not performing every two hour turning and positioning when i have a boat load of meds to pass, hang and check throughout the night including bp med drips, heparin drips, etc. i know this may sound nuts, to worry about a q2 t/p when vs take precedence but how can it all be done? ancillary staff isn't always around, and i work nights so sometimes its a ghost town. i also worry about writing notes. any other newbies out there have the same worries? did i say enough? too much?? i look at some other notes but the notes are just as varied. 'write what happened' is easier said than done. sorry for the ramble. any advice is much appreciated.