Hey. I've been working as a new nurse for about a month now. When I interviewed, I was nervous but I interviewed at the hospital of which I thought was one of the bests in Las Vegas. I got the job, probably because I had preceptored at similar floors of that same hospital a few months ago and was well known.It's scary, honestly. I slowly took on one, two, and then three patients. I am currently at three. I am dealing with similar frustrations that the rest of the new nurses are taking. At first I was terrified. Luckily everyone on the unit was friendly, willing to help, and my preceptor helped me slowly accommodates to what is going on. Now she's letting me loose on my own with three patients and said that I'm ready to take it on by myself. She'll still stand by to help if I need it.I failed horribly the first day on my own though. I had to ask for help. I mean, I'm glad she believes I have potential. She told me that when she started, she was a mess for the first year. I feel like I'm a complete mess and I'm doing so many things wrong. I make notes and I forget what to chart. Plus even though I know how to prioritize I don't follow it because the patients want certain things that they don't exactly need (extra milk, coffee, etc).I know I'm probably beating myself up a lot more. I go home and I am full of anxiety of what I did wrong or what I missed. For example, taking medication out from the Pixis but not all of them show up so I have to go back and forth from that. I know I can master it over time, I just wish I can master it now. This is probably a long rant, but it helps me reduce my anxiety and allows me to have some input about other fellow new graduates and to know I'm not the only one. I talked with some of my other classmates but they seem to be doing well. My friends say they adore night shift and take on more patients than I do. I kind of feel like I'm being left behind.Plus when a situation comes up and I'm asked information about my patient that I had the past two days, I SHOULD know it, but I get nervous and scared. I look like I didn't know anything about anyone I was taking care of. That's embarrassing. I'm worried that the other nurses will think less of me, and I question if I actually know the information I think I know about the patients I take on. For example, a patient who was in complete pain (despite PCA+Fentyl patch after surgery), kept crying and complaining of pain (but kept falling asleep when no one was in the room talking with her). I looked through her charts but the (very friendly and very nice) charge nurse asked me to call the on call anesthesiologist. When talking to him I got flustered and wrote down the medications he wanted, but had to check her kidney functions, which were high. She didn't have a kidney doctor as far as I know.I just wish I knew everything so I know what to say. The patient got her pain medication (Nerve Block), which helped for a bit (still went back up to a 10/10 later that dayâ€¦not sure what else we can do for her without ODing her), and not be so nervous about talking to other healthcare professions. I sometimes think back about what I did wrong or caught myself and think about how I can improve that. It's nerve wrecking and my anxiety is horribly high.I think I understand why most new grad nurses drop off before a year. The stress and fear gets to be a lot. Especially when you're beating yourself up the most and everyone else is treating you as kindly as possible. I'm lucky in that regard; that the staffing is one of the best. L Any tips to help me relax and to help me be more proficient as a new grad nurse? Much help is needed!PS. I've heard rumors that some new grads take Xanax for their first couple of years to settle themselves for work. What do you guys think of that?