New Grad PN

[Heyyall]

I am a new grad with a TPP.  A lot of places don't accept it so I'm limited to where I can work. I know most will advise new nurses not to go to LTC facilities, but I had no other choice so I went to this facility. They had me on training for three 12 hour days. Then suddenly without warning they threw me on a cart and told me I am working because there was a call off. Of course I panic because I feel like I don't know wth I'm doing yet, so I expressed my concerns to the supervisor. She told me it is what it is and to just  ask someone for help if I need it. So I start my med pass and of course I fall so behind, because it's my first one on my own. Eventually they send in a preceptor to help guide me, but she stayed at a desk most of the time or would randomly leave. That caused me to fall even more behind. I don't know much about tube feeds and felt like I wasn't comfortable with it, so it ended up taking forever. Then nobody communicated to me that the aids don't empty the foley Cath bags so they left it for me but didn't say anything until it was extremely full. I emptied it after someone became irritated with me . After a while the preceptor came back and had to jump on the car because I was so behind. We did meds together and I didn't get out of there until an hour later: I feel like a failure and maybe nursing is not for me. I'm so disappointed because I feel like I have no options and now I'm stuck in this position.

[floydnightingale]

floydnightingale said:

TPP? Start with avoiding obscure abbreviations.

I second that emotion