New grad nurse experience

[Sarah23]

I have been a nurse for  9 months of being a nurse. I have worked at a progressive care unit with a 3-4 patient ratio. I  am on nights, I did not get any day shift orientation on my unit.  And my manager put me with a traveler that was not teaching anything.  My manager started to mess with my schedule where I did not work 3 days in a row and being on nights was very hard on me because I wanted to switch back on my day off.  I was the only one in my unit whose schedule got messed up and I did talk to her but kept putting in a terrible schedule even the other new grads would get the schedule they wanted except me. I was the only one with a preceptor who was a traveler and I did talk to her to change but she did not have enough people to preceptor. Our floor was very understaffed we had only very few core staff.  After I had been there for 9 months I felt like I hadn't learned a lot and I had a lot of doubts.  Not all of my time on that unit was a waste but I still do feel like I am not happy with where I am at I want to learn more. My other co-workers are telling me I would be great as an ICU nurse because I am very oriented.  But part of me wants to go to med surg because I don't feel good enough for ICU.   I feel lost and don't know what to do.  I also wish I had done the day shift instead of nights because I would have learned a lot more. I decided to leave my unit even though I only had 9 months of experience I just had enough with the way my manager was treating me.  I am just sad that I did not get enough experience on my floor and I am leaving now.