Hi. I'm a newer NICU nurse. I did an accelerated RN/BSN program an then was in med/surg/tele for a year before transferring to the NICU this past February. Here's my problem...I work w a tough group of nurses. They r very territorial and can be a little rough. So far I had not had any problems though. Until this last week or so. I missed an IV infiltration when I was at work for 4 hours sept 2. Then this last weekend I made a med error. I reviewed at 4mg/kg q48h order for a 33 weeker. I looked at the neopfax twice and for some reason both time my vision went diagonal on the graph and I viewed this as ok. I did check it w another RN when I admired. Luckily this was caught by the day shift nurse the the next morning before the second dose was given and it was corrected. I have been written up for this error, and I don't have a problem with that bc it was my mistake and I feel horrible. But management puled me aside and has asked me to evaluate if I think "I'm cut out to be a NICU nurse." They say they'll "work with me" if I decide I want to stay but my educator then said, "if you choose this it's going to be hard. Ur going to feel like everyone is watching all the time." I know my med error was bad and being just a few weeks after the IV infiltration looks terrible. But I feel like I've been doing ok. Management also said "some of the nurses may be treating u different bc they feel like ur skills aren't where they shud be right now. Some of them may not even want to work in the same pod as u." I honestly felt a little bullyed by my educator and management. I want to stay in the NICU but as of now I don't feel comfortable even returning to work. By the way they decided to have this meeting w me right in the middle of my shift when I was taking are of our sickest baby. By sickest I mean 26wk, HJFV, and I'd given FFP, platelets, PRBCs, 2 boluses and sodium bicarb. Needless to say the rest of my day continued to be lousy. Sorry so long but am I overreacting w how upset I am? Is this usual treatment for someone after a med error? Do I even stay?