My 2nd attempt for NCLEX, I am worry...

[ngocupham]

Today, I took the NCLEX for the 2nd time. My mind truly went blank after the test. I don't remember what time I officially started the test, but I know it must started at around 8:00 and I was out at about 10:20. I took one 2min break after I completed question 76 when the computer offered the break and then I sat down and continued to question 100. I know I continued beyond 100, but I totally got freak out when the computer went blue and I totally did not know what number I was on. I tried to not to at the clock and the number that much because the last time I did that, I just got more anxiety as the questions gone up. When the computer shut off and after I finished the survey, I was very hopeful that I might pass. However, in the back of my head, I am really worry and scare. I keep hearing people either got shut off at 75 and can do good or bad or continue taking the exams to the 200s and low chance to pass. I have reads that peoples get up to the 80s has a very good chance of passing. However, not much about the 100s. Now, I even get more anxiety and depressed because some of the thread on here has the mix answers of passing or failing. My mind really blank out right now and I could not remember what types of questions I got toward the ends of the test. All I can remember is there were SATA and priority, just not sure how many questions were there. I am now doubting myself so much because may be I went thru the questions too quickly. I am usually the slow reader type, but today, I might have gone thru the questions too quickly. Last time, I had gone out of time on question 210, so I was trying to change that. Now, the computer shut me off at 100 something, it got me very worry.

I am in a very bad situation. I know I completely brought it to myself and don't understand why I would do that, but now I am just hoping for a good outcome. Truthfully, today is my last day to be able to register for the NCLEX. I have gone to the one year limit for my ATT and within the next 3 month, my app for the board will also expired from the 2 years limit. I took my 1st NCLEX in July 2014 and failed. I was devastated and continue to delay my test until now. I was being stupid and cannot get my head out of the depression state that I was in. I cried so much when I failed the first time, and now I just don't know how I feel. I want to cry, but I can't. I want to be happy, but I can't either.

My friend told me to do the Pearson Vue trick, but I have read on the changes of the site and I really don't want to risk paying due to my situation. I am already at the deadline for my ATT, so I don't know whether the trick will work for me. I don't want it to take my money and I know that I am not ready to take it again within the next 3 months. So when the 2 year app limit is over, it means I will be paying double for the exam alone. I have never try to call to get information regarding this situation. I just know people have to spend a lot of time trying to call the board. I live in CA, so does anyone know a good time and way to contact the board? I don't know what to do now, and I am just so lost now.

I am just so pressured with my family situation and feeling so stupid about my situation. I don't know what is my plan after this. I am so stressed thinking about trying to apply and study and do the test again. I am also so scared of thinking that I might have to go back to school and study again for another major.

I just feel so horrible....

[xyfy]

Hi,

I was curious how you've been. Any updates from you?