My Great Wait Debate...

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I had been casually browsing job openings, even though I love what I do, because there have been changes in managers and supervisors for my company, and things are just taking a big turn for the worse. It is clear that this new management team does not think much of us nurses. Yet, I've been laying low so that I won't be targeted like other nurses have been so far. You know how the quiet kid tries to avoid the bully on the playground? A lot like that. But, aside from worrying about the mass emails attempting to make nurses feel pathetic and unneeded, and aside from hating the way that I have seen other nurses (amazing nurses I'd like to add, not the type to typically have these sort of run ins with management) I really do like what it is I actually do at this company. (I'm being vague on purpose!) Since I have managed to lay low, I was taking my time in finding a new job.

In this casual job search, one day, I just so happened to stumble upon this one job that I think could be absolutely amazing. I sent the application, really hoping to get the job, but thinking that if not, I can lay low a little longer.

Of course, days after doing so, the company REALLY crossed the line in my opinion. Again, it was not something directed at me personally, it was something said to all nurses. And, it wasn't that I disagreed with what they were trying to say... but the disrespect with which this mass message was sent struck a nerve with me. I'm embarrased to be standing behind these people. I'm embarrassed to say that I'll devote my nursing skills to bettering this company. And I'm angry that they can feel okay with demeaning nurses as they do, and that there is nobody willing go tell them this is wrong. Most of us who would like to, would lose our job, and we wouldn't really be heard anyway.

I have heard that the company that I applied to work with takes a LOOOOONG time getting applicants/new employees in the door. This is mainly bc they are very thorough in checking your qualifications I'm told. But, I had told a friend about my struggles with my current company, she told a friend who does hiring at another company all about me... and she's proven to be a pretty great reference, because I was offered a job the next day without applying. So after my novel of a backstory (I'm so sorry for that btw... I just started typing not thinking I had so much to say... then THIS all comes out!!! a million thank you's for continuing to read!) my debate is this: I am angry, and hurt enough to leave my current company NOW so that I never have to be a recipient of their unkind manners again. This would mean accepting the job that's already been offered. But, I'm afraid that if I do hear back from the company that I really want to work for with the job that I would really like to have, that it is going to look really bad that I recently quit my current job, and that I'd then quit the next job that I had taken shortly after starting to accept a position with them (if they would even want to offer it). I don't know what kind of a timeframe I should set for when to stop waiting for the company I applied to and assume they are not interested (it was one of those jobs where I met all the requirements, and more than half but not all of the "desirable but not required" qualities, so I'm not banking on a call, but not considering it impossible by any means either).

I'm just hoping for guidance to make the best choice here, because what was one a little voice in the back of my mind saying "Let's see what else we can find..." is now one thundering voice in my head saying "GET OUT! RUN! GO ANYWHERE, BUT DON'T STAY HERE!!" I'm usually a good gut feeling kind of girl, but my gut feels nothing but twisted right now. Help?