6 month mark update...relocation, experience.

I have finally made it to the six month mark at my first nursing job. It wasn't easy, especially after orientation. In the previous post "reaching 3 month mark," I was really stressed and hoped it would get better. My first week off of orientation was a disaster and felt very much used by my nursing manager. That's a long story I won't tell here. Till this day I have lost all respect for her. I told myself during that period I was only staying at this job for 6 months.

Background: It took me two years to find a nursing job in which I am grateful for. I had to relocate to a rural area (from an urban area) to obtain it. I try to visit my family, friends, and boyfriend when I get the chance at least once a month (6 hour drive on the greyhound bus, I do not drive). For the past few months I've noticed a trend when coming back from visiting: Anxiety (SOB, chest pain). Depression (very quiet around my co-workers, questioning "why am I here"). My health (lack of energy, more fatigued, dehydration, severe constipation- nausea/abdominal pain).

Now I'm at the 6 month mark and overall I'm grateful for the experience that I have gained. I'm proud of myself that I am able independently care for patients and still ask questions (which I will never stop asking questions, even if I had 5 years experience). 3 months ago I did say I was leaving at 6 months and I'm still here. I'm not here on this post to get advice on whether I should stay or leave but suggestions are welcomed. I've already made up my mind as to the next step that needs to be taken. First and foremost, I'm not leaving unless I have a job offer somewhere else closer to my loved ones.

My advice to nurses looking for a nursing job:

If you're planning to relocate for a job, ensure that you are going to be physically and emotionally ready especially if you're doing it on your own. Never give up and never settle for less than your worth. No matter how long it may take you to find a nursing job, never give up. Think about your family.