Maybe I'm just tired of nursing?

[Duncan6]

The last 5 years I have left and returned to outpatient dialysis twice.  The first time I left was just a mistake- I didn't ask the right questions before I took the job.  I'm now a dialysis manager at a rehab hospital.  Really small program, fairly low stress, pretty good pay.  Staffing is a pain, but that's anywhere for the most part.  Truthfully, I hate to even complain, but it's kind of boring.  I miss outpatient, working with a team, having a full, busy day.  I left outpatient mostly because the 4am start time was killing me.  

I keep in touch with several managers at outpatient clinics due to my current position and I became aware of an opening for a home therapy nurse at one of the clinics and I think I'm interested in pursuing it .  I have done some PD, but over 20 years ago.  I enjoy the teaching aspect and 1:1.  It also would let me have a more regular schedule than HD while being back in strictly dialysis. (I am so not a rehab nurse.)

I'm just talking with the manager now- haven't officially applied.  My concern is that I've been at my current position for just over a year and I'm starting to think that maybe I'm just looking for something that doesn't exist and I should be happy where I'm at. Maybe it's just nursing in general that I'm dissatisfied with? I don't want to jump to another job and feel the same way I do now in a year. because it's not the job specifically but nursing in general.  

One good thing is that I don't feel like I'd be leaving the hospital in a bad spot- one of our local acute nurses is chomping at the bit to manage the program and really I think he would be fantastic, so the program wouldn't suffer.

[Duncan6]

Interviewed but passed on the HT position, ended up also requiring coverage of a clinic over an hour away from home.  They do want me to consider coming back to incenter.  Tempting but 4am start time and pay decrease is holding me back.  However, I am currently on week 3 of no patients.  The first week I found a lot to do, now every day I'm trying to figure out how to fill 8 hours.  I've been auditing charts and doing the occasional diabetes education when needed, but that doesn't really fill up my day.  I spoke with another dialysis manager at a sister clinic in our company and he's on 8 weeks of no patients.  I know a lot of people are way too busy and would see it as a relief, but this is painful.