Most of you who frequent this board know my stroy...I quit a well paying job to go to school(because of health reasons) I chose to go to the ADN program. Now here I am not working, trying to get all of my financial assistance lined out, totally broke, and terrified. My husband works, but when you go from 2 incomes to 1 it is very scary...he keeps telling me it will be okay and I know that he will do all he can to make it that way, but whether he realizes it or not...he is not mighty mouse here to save the day,lol.
My biggest problem is that I have taken care of myself since I was 15 and got my first job...I bought my own school clothes, class ring, prom dresses and the whole bit...so now 15 years later after taking care of myself for so long I find myself depending on my husband. I'm not so sure I will make it....It's really hard for me to have someone take care of me after all these years. My aunt says it is a test from God, I don't know, but I do know it is hard! I clean house, but if I don't do everything and my husband has to do something I feel guilty. If I am out running errands or visiting my aunt and don't do what "I" think I should do I feel guilty.....I guess I am putting too much pressure on myself to make things perfect. I don't know, but I am having a really hard time to deal with this.....so I wanted to know if anyone out there has hadany problems similar to this and how did you deal with it?