Was wondering if anyone could give me some input as this is a touchy subject and I am freaking out. As a side note I have been an RN just over a year. Over the weekend during the end of my shift I somehow lost a Norco I was supposed to return to the pixis. Normally I bring my bag of meds into the room with me and those the patient refuses i place back in the baggy and into my pocket to be returned. I had to have gotten a call or something distracted me to make me leave that patients room and not go to the pixis immediately. But I did not realize I had misplaced it until I came back for my second shift that night. Immediately I notified my charge, looked in patient room and in the trash (which was more than likely emptied in the am), looked in scrubs at home, and could not find it. I spoke with my ANA on Monday who told me to email our hospitals narcotic auditor. He had emailed me back explaining he would get back to me after he looked into the situation.
This is my first time ever losing a med however I have had two occasions in the past where I thought I had scanned dilaudid, threw it in the sharps, and found out after that the drug had not been scanned. Again let my charge RN know, who told me to document in the e-mar that they were not scanned. Nothing punitive ever happened, however I did change my practice from throwing the syringes into the sharps to throwing it in the trash (they did not have needles on them).
My fear is if this auditor sees that in addition to this lost med, that I could potentially be accused of diverging medication. It makes me sick to my stomach because I am not a drug addict nor do I steal patients medication. I made a mistake. I should have been more vigilant and careful. Just thinking about it makes me cry. I just cant imagine loosing my license or being under investigation. I was just trying to be honest. Now I feel like I am a failure and an awful RN. I feel like I let myself and my family down.
Was wondering if anyone could give me some input as this is a touchy subject and I am freaking out. As a side note I have been an RN just over a year. Over the weekend during the end of my shift I somehow lost a Norco I was supposed to return to the pixis. Normally I bring my bag of meds into the room with me and those the patient refuses i place back in the baggy and into my pocket to be returned. I had to have gotten a call or something distracted me to make me leave that patients room and not go to the pixis immediately. But I did not realize I had misplaced it until I came back for my second shift that night. Immediately I notified my charge, looked in patient room and in the trash (which was more than likely emptied in the am), looked in scrubs at home, and could not find it. I spoke with my ANA on Monday who told me to email our hospitals narcotic auditor. He had emailed me back explaining he would get back to me after he looked into the situation.
This is my first time ever losing a med however I have had two occasions in the past where I thought I had scanned dilaudid, threw it in the sharps, and found out after that the drug had not been scanned. Again let my charge RN know, who told me to document in the e-mar that they were not scanned. Nothing punitive ever happened, however I did change my practice from throwing the syringes into the sharps to throwing it in the trash (they did not have needles on them).
My fear is if this auditor sees that in addition to this lost med, that I could potentially be accused of diverging medication. It makes me sick to my stomach because I am not a drug addict nor do I steal patients medication. I made a mistake. I should have been more vigilant and careful. Just thinking about it makes me cry. I just cant imagine loosing my license or being under investigation. I was just trying to be honest. Now I feel like I am a failure and an awful RN. I feel like I let myself and my family down.