Haven't been on here regularly for a while as have been very busy since arriving here. When I say busy, we have been spending a lot of time chasing ss#, sorting out car, shopping, opening a bank account etc, but not always feeling we have got very far. At the moment I am wondering whether we are going to live our dream. My husband and son have gone back to the UK this evening and I'm here on my own. It was planned before we came over that my husband would go back after a month because unfortunately we haven't sold the house. Our son we hoped was going to stay with me, but has not settled, has not tried to settle, but has wanted to go back home from getting on the flight over here. He tried school for one day only (he's 18 in november), we've had a really tough time with him. He's spent his days on msn chatting to his girlfriend and friends, and of course knowing that his dad was going back after a month ( we had return tickets as they were cheaper), made it an easy option for him.
I felt like going home the first couple of days, I cannot explain the feeling. However, the days got better for my husband and myself, but now today I feel just like I did 4 weeks ago. I've cried so much today, my husband and son are up in the air at the moment on their way back home, and I'm sitting here all alone. We both know it's what we want and can be happy here, but the separation is going to be very hard, and I'm questioning myself is this worth it?
I hope my son comes back when the house is sold and my husband comes back for good, but whether he will only time will tell. I know he will be 18 soon but he is still my child. I have already left one behind, she is almost 21 and may or may not come in the future after uni. Although she is coming at christmas for 2 weeks with her boyfriend.
I hope the house is soon sold, but it's one of those things you can't predict. I do have my mum and dad coming over for 3 weeks on 8th november so I have that to look forward to.
Anyway, anyone reading this thanks for listening.
Got to keep smiling and stay strong, it'll all be worth in the end I keep telling myself!