ok - here is the issue - and i know i should let it go but i am still bothered by it....
my school (which was my first and only school i applied to) accepted me after my initial interview
HOWEVER - they have 5 clinical sites and you are required to pick a first and second choice - THEN you have to interview and be accepted to the clinical site. (sounds ridiculous to me, but hey...)
so two years ago (when i was accepted) i chose my first and second choices (which i will not name right now)
during the past year i secured a job w/ choice number 2 in the cvicu and subsequently asked to change choice #2 to #1
when interview time came - they still had me interview in the initial order i chose (hope i am not losing you thus far)
i knew that my initial choice #1 was a longshot due to the fact that most of the students in this program work there - and well - they are of course going to get picked there first....this is one of the reasons i wanted to just interview at my #2 place.
long story shortened - they had me interview w/ my choice #1 and i didn't get chosen - i have my interview w/ choice #2 this wk (where i am sure i will get ok'd)
however - i feel a bit discriminated against - as i know i wasn't chosen because i do not work there - i don't feel that is very fair - and i kind of feel i was set up for a let down from the beginning.
i also find it redundant to be accepted to a program just to have to interview AGAIN at a clinical site.....
am i being ridiculous ?!?!
i just have a very hard time w/ failure as i am not well aquainted w/ it...... let me know your thoughts.
Humility happens in anesthesia, but so does satisfaction, self-confidence and good feelings. I love making it look easy, but being able to keep cool when everything around you is turning sour, and being able to apply an incredible amount of knowledge to patient care.
The only problem I ever had with all of that is when I bought a red Mercedes convertible. There seems to be a rule that nurses shall not drive Mercedes. The surgeons all concluded that I was making too much money. I just laughed and told them that they should have become a CRNA. We are all friends, but I still hear some occasional comments about my great little car.
alansmith52
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yes, so far it reminds me of basic trainning. I am nothing, I know nothing, nothing has somthing on me...
remeber the time I went to basic trainning and after the gas chamber I cried?
and then the time I spent two years in a bamboo hut in the philippines where I ate dog and field rat.
I have never done anything this humbleing (if thats a word) or that caused as much mental anguish and strife.
matt
p.s. and I love it