I have lived in a small town of 4,000 or so people for 17 years of my life. This town is where my memories are, where my family is, and where I have my future set. From the time that I was like 4 I wanted to "grow up to be a nurse" and work at the local hospital. I have kept the same goal for 15 years, and I feel that means something. There is only one facility to nurse at in this town. I have been working there as an Aide for the past 2 years. Those two years have been hell for me. I have been stabbed in the back, treated like garbage, and my self esteem has vanished.
With every goal I complete something else has to happen. I just got night shift, the shift I have aways wanted. I've worked nights before, and the crew has always been pleasant to me. Well ever since it got around that I was getting permanent nights, one person fron the night crew has been terible to me. So terrible that I feel like I'm going to break down and cry at the end of the shift. I wanted this shift because it was the only one where people didn't treat me like crap. I am seriously at my wits end with this job, but I cant quit. There is now way I can throw away the dream that I have had my heart set on for 15 years over people treating me like crap (constantly). If I quit I won't be able to come back, and I will have to leave everything and everyone I love behind, but If i stay I think I'm going to be driven over the edge.
Sorry so lengthy, but I need to vent.
Any advice would be appriciated at this point. I'm at the edge of a nervous breakdown here!
