Hi all,
I'm new here, so I hope I am posting this in the correct location. I'm looking for some advice. Here's my background:
I'm a 22 year old female with a previous Bachelors of Science in Psychology and Math degree (graduated in May of 2010). After weighing the pros and cons of grad school, I decided it wasn't right for me. Initially when I started college, I began on a pre med or nursing track (for whatever reasons, I changed my mind halfway through). I decided shortly after graduating that I wanted to go back to school for RN. I found an ASN program relatively close to where I live, took my required admissions test and scored very well, and I was accepted into the 18 month accelerated option. I was ecstatic, I couldn't wait to start. I have always had a HUGE interest in the medical field, and felt like I was headed in the right direction.
I started my first course this summer. Did very well, learned basic skills, etc. I just started back for the fall, and I'm feeling discouraged. I'm doing great, but I constantly feel like I'm jumping through hoops. I dislike all of the theory coursework and the seemingly pointless assignments, although I realize it's importance, at the same time it's incredibly intuitive at this point. I really enjoy the clinical skills we're learning though, but I am definitely nervous about our first real day of clinical coming up soon. I've heard horror stories of people getting into the field and hating their jobs, their coworkers, the politics, and so on and so forth. I'm terrified I may be making a horrible mistake. All of my previous degree was paid for by scholarships, but now that I am going back to school and have a previous degree, I don't qualify for anything but unsubsidized loans. I'm already out several thousand dollars for school. I don't know if I'm just in a funk right now or what, but I can't help but have this nagging feeling like I'm potentially making a mistake. It all felt so right to begin with, but I'm just discouraged by the course content. I LOVED school during my first degree, enjoyed nearly everything about it...but I just feel underwhelmed by the material at this point.
So nurses, does it get better? Is nursing school just always about politics and hoop jumping? Does anyone regret all the stress of school after becoming employed? A very large part of me still feels like I'm headed down the right path, I really do have a heart for working with people in this type of setting...but I just don't know if it will all meet my expectations when it's all said and done.
Thanks for any advice that can be offered!