Hey all, this is a topic that is a little unusual for me. I enjoy the anonymity of the internet for it.
Ive been in the healthcare field for over 15 years. A cna for approx. 5 years before I became an rn, at a lock down dementia unit.
My career spans the gambit. I was a ortho/tele nurse, Ive done agency where I was thrown into some absolutely ridiculous circumstances. I then went and became an icu nurse for almost 4 years and got bored of that. Then went to the er where I loved it. Ive been an er nurse for maybe 7 years?
But I don't have it anymore. I used to jump into the middle of the **** so to speak if I had downtime. I would grab the busy patients. I loved it. My icu background was invaluable when it came to intubating patients, titrating drips and just generally keeping people alive. Other nurses loved working with me because I always kept my cool and I was always able to help. My charge nurse would slam me and I would beable to just get it done.
But I am finding myself increasingly anxious. I left my old ed to work at a one that wasn't as busy and told myself it was because it paid more.
And even here... while I work I find myself anxious. I had a little old lady today who fell.. stable as can be.. and I was sweating while I took care of her. It hit me when she said... dear.. am I making you nervous? I wasn't even busy.
Ive never been told that in my life. This is a patient I can take care of 100 of. I don't know what it is, why its happening. I find myself now very nervous when a sick patient comes in. And I can take care of these people without any issues.
Once I actually take care of them, Im good. My instincts and training and experience kicks in.. and I don't feel that anxiety and I work just like I did when I would as I would say "crush my assignment". Except today. And that was when I had lady who was a fall... that simply slipped on her butt.
I think it started when one night I was working and I had a multitude of codes back to back and ended with a 3 year old asthmatic come my way and we had to intubate on the spot (went well too). And since then it has been a slow steady decline since in my own self confidence and ability to stay cool.
What are anyones thoughts on this?
Has anyone felt this way?
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Hey all, this is a topic that is a little unusual for me. I enjoy the anonymity of the internet for it.
Ive been in the healthcare field for over 15 years. A cna for approx. 5 years before I became an rn, at a lock down dementia unit.
My career spans the gambit. I was a ortho/tele nurse, Ive done agency where I was thrown into some absolutely ridiculous circumstances. I then went and became an icu nurse for almost 4 years and got bored of that. Then went to the er where I loved it. Ive been an er nurse for maybe 7 years?
But I don't have it anymore. I used to jump into the middle of the **** so to speak if I had downtime. I would grab the busy patients. I loved it. My icu background was invaluable when it came to intubating patients, titrating drips and just generally keeping people alive. Other nurses loved working with me because I always kept my cool and I was always able to help. My charge nurse would slam me and I would beable to just get it done.
But I am finding myself increasingly anxious. I left my old ed to work at a one that wasn't as busy and told myself it was because it paid more.
And even here... while I work I find myself anxious. I had a little old lady today who fell.. stable as can be.. and I was sweating while I took care of her. It hit me when she said... dear.. am I making you nervous? I wasn't even busy.
Ive never been told that in my life. This is a patient I can take care of 100 of. I don't know what it is, why its happening. I find myself now very nervous when a sick patient comes in. And I can take care of these people without any issues.
Once I actually take care of them, Im good. My instincts and training and experience kicks in.. and I don't feel that anxiety and I work just like I did when I would as I would say "crush my assignment". Except today. And that was when I had lady who was a fall... that simply slipped on her butt.
I think it started when one night I was working and I had a multitude of codes back to back and ended with a 3 year old asthmatic come my way and we had to intubate on the spot (went well too). And since then it has been a slow steady decline since in my own self confidence and ability to stay cool.
What are anyones thoughts on this?
Has anyone felt this way?