I want to do something else

[smileysenior]

I have been working on an extremely busy med/tele unit for about 7 months..........and I hate it. Nursing is not what I thought it was. I dont have to explain y, you guys already know. I am looking into other careers that may pay less but that I may be happier with. I envy people who enjoy their jobs and have careers they love.........I can't quit because I need the money. But I am trying to save so I can work towards another career that I would love. I know people say that you should try to stay for a year in one place because it looks good and I am going to try to stick it out that long but I just want to be honest with myself, this is not something I see myself doing for much longer. Anyone who is considering a career in nursing, RUN and fast!

[SoundofMusic]

OH, OP, I so know how you feel. I hate it also at times. After almost a year now, though, and as the shock of it all is wearing off, I can actually almost, almost laugh at many of the items on your list. I guess I've adjusted to the reality and shock as a new grad.

I don't plan to do the bedside thing forever. I feel I'm working in this hellatious area now, to get my experience. And valuable experience it is -- From here I plan to go after a masters degree and try to work my way into something less stressful. But to make good money is always stressful.

My problem is that nothing else pays as well or allows me so much time off. I can really combine this w/ a family. I document like hell to cover my butt with everything that happens, and do the best job I can. I can't stand many of my co-workers and can hardly even stand a few of the patients . . ..but some of them I'm getting to like and I'm appreciative of many of my co-workers who go to great lengths to help me when I'm in trouble.

Some of my total PITA patients I am even start to laugh at and even have a fondness for ....I don't understand how, but I do.

I dont know. It's a love/hate thing for me.

I find myself truly utterly ignoring the people I don't like at work. I mean -- I don't even look at them. They are waste of my mental energy. I have learned who I can pleasantly deal with and I just gravitate towards those folks. Doctors I have learned to forgive also, as I know many of them are extremely overworked and THEY TOO, take lots of abuse off of patients and families.

It's not easy. I cried the other day after work frm the exhaustion and stress. I felt overworked and ignored at work ... but I just go home and enjoy life and forget about it. Someday I will find something better, but for now I'm "paying my dues."