I never thought I'd break down and say this, but nursing isn't for me

[neongloss]

Just wanted to vent. With my previous lifestyle, I was completely fine with shift work, not getting breaks or taking breaks on the premises with interruptions, and working weekends. Those are the kinds of jobs I've always worked. Now that my lifestyle is changing AND I'm beyond burned out, I'm longing for the M-F 9-5 with guaranteed breaks. I want an office job so that I'll have the energy to do things with family and friends before and after work.

The problem here is that I'm an RPN. I have been job hunting AT LEAST once per week for the past year and a half. I found ONE good non-clinical job in my area since then (disability case manager RPN), but didn't get a call. Every other job opening is LTC, med-surg, home care, clinic, foot care, or OR. All of the options that interest me (hospice, telehealth, etc.) are for RNs, and I don't want to go back to school for 3 years. I can't relocate, as we just bought a house this year. I worked LTC with an hour commute for a year and hated it (I have driving anxiety too), struggled to find a job closer, and now I'm in LTC 10 minutes away from my home. I still don't like LTC. I do the bare minimum and then hide away in the med room on my breaks.

I'm working casual and I refuse to do more than 3 shifts per week. I'm losing money every month because I don't want to work more shifts. I can't handle it. I essentially made back the money I spent on tuition (paid in full), so it wouldn't be a TOTAL waste if I went into reception or administration... Would it? :/ I didn't goto school for 8 years after high school just so I could "be sure of what I wanted to do" to not waste money on a diploma, and I failed at that.

[Jedrnurse, BSN, RN]

In the interim, could you take a part-time non-nursing job on the days that you're not working? A little bit of reduction in financial stress would be good, and doing something non-nursing might inspire you or lead to some useful contacts...