I never thought I would say this...

[AngelaLPN08]

But I am wondering what I was thinking. I am just in a rut, in just 2 months.

It started by hating med passes (we don't do them often where I work but it is done at least 1x a month) I left crying because i was overwhelmed.

Then next med pass....i got A MED ERROR! Oh how could I do it...well I know how but i felt like crap and just embarrassed..Mind you I am still in orientation for 6 weeks! I did not want to go back to work. But I did..

Now we self schedule and nobody has the same rules. I am so angry and frustrated. I change something because I am told i can't do it...Now its 4-12's but then after the fact i can do it and could have had a few days off!

I just wonder what I was doing becoming a nurse and working as hard as I do. I love what I do but I just feel so discouraged like I am an incompetent nurse and just need to run for the hills. I never thought it would be me. I am always so peppy and now..I think I should have been an accountant! I am not even on my own yet and I feel this crummy what am I going to do Oct 26 when I am alone!?! :imbar:sniff:

Oh well Just a big while...but how do you get out of these mods?

[pagandeva2000, LPN]

This is not unusual, especially for new nurses. School gave the illusion that nursing is a fair and compassionate profession, but the real world will wake you up quickly. I had my license since 2006 and I still get overwhelmed occasionally, but I learned to cope. I take more time to relax during my days and time off and I have also found 'safe' shortcuts to make my life easier.

It takes at least a year or two to really get it together...remember, you are just entering into the field! So many things to consider, and the only way to learn is to gain experience. In addition, as unfortunate as it can be, we learn the best through our mistakes, even medication errors. I learned from mine when I will absolutely not be disturbed, if I have a doubt in my mind to double, even triple check and ask someone else. I can't promise you much, but believe me, you WILL become more efficient, knowledgable and confident as time goes on. You are not incompetent, you are NEW and INEXPERIENCED...and that is different from being apathetic and uncaring.