Life has been throwing some hard balls my way and smacking right in the face. That is just the personal and at home life.
Recently I just got hired full time at a position I have been working at for almost a year per diem. With the position came more responsibilities and expectation, which I was and am more than ready to take on. I work as an LPN in a neurosurgery center where we do surgeries, and injections. I was originally hired to help out with the injections, but now I am training to help out with surgeries as well.
When a surgery patient comes out of surgery, they are assigned to a nurse. Ever since I started full time, one of the nurses it seems has gone out of his way to make sure I know I can't do anything correct. For example, one of the nurses went on break, and when she left she gave me specific instructions on how she would like her patients pain handled. As I was following her isntructions the other nurse comes in and tells me he is doing it his way, and completely makes me look and feel dumb in front of that patient.
The past few days have been miserable, and I have just gone home feeling like a horrible nurse, and for the first time ever, I have doubted my calling. This facility is such a great opportunity to work at, and my problems are with this one nurse, but I dont really want to be the tattletale. The other nurse who works PACU with us has already warned me about him and told me that "since I am new, he is going to nitpick everything you do, and it is going to be frustrating. Just hang in there". The nurse who is giving me the problem is a great nurse, in fact one of the best that I have seen or been around.
I know I am a good nurse, I just hate the feeling of being so freaking new, and not having confidence in what I do!!!
Thanks for listening, and if you guys have any advice, please share.
