I feel like giving up

[DCA]

So ive been an ER nurse for 3 yrs and that was all outside US. I stopped working for a yr due to transition from Asia to US. Then I got a job as an ED nurse in a busy ER. Ive been working there for almost 2 months and 1 wk. Im off orientation next week. It is so weird because the management kept on changing their info at first they said I will be on training for 12-16 weeks, but they changed it to 8 wks.I feel like I need more time for training but management thinks I dont. I am so overwhelmed with everything in this new job because . Environment, culture, people, policies, patients, responsibilities, ways of documenting, machines, just everything is new to me. I cry most of the time going home because I have one preceptor who is into micromanaging me and making me feel I'm dumb (good thing is I only dealt with that person 6 times).I am always nervous going to work and always feel not going to work. I know I should love my job because this a job most of the people outside US wishes to have. But I just dont feel it. Because all of these, I got sick and my body just gave up so now I am in the process of needing surgery. I feel like I should just apply for a doctors office job. But my problem is if I apply to them should I put in I worked almost 2 months 1 wk in ED here in US or not? Will they accept me because I dont have enough US experience yet or should I just hold on and keep going with this job? I feel so lost. I felt like choosing this hospital was a mistake. I chose this hospital because the people I shadowed were nice to me, but then when I started working they already resigned. I do not know what to do.

[CalicoKitty, BSN, MSN, RN]

If you read the forums, a lot of people feel overwhelmed during orientation and getting off orientation. It is not unusual. Crying on your way to/from work is not too unusual, but it isn't good for you.

A lot of the problem is dealing with preceptors. Every person will have their own ways of doing things, and when teaching someone else people may be picky. Some of it is expectations of documentation, etc, others would be just a particular way of doing things.

Once you're on your own and don't have someone hovering over your shoulder, it could get better. Just make sure that you use the rest of your coworkers as resources.

If your work is making you sick, perhaps you should leave. Leaving before you complete orientation could mean you don't need to keep a contract. You could still get new jobs, but chances are many of the ERs are similar in the area. It is about finding a good team and getting your rhythm.

Also, make sure you have resources at home. Friends or family to talk with or vent to about work.