hospital nursing vs ambulatory oncology breast center

[kcpoe]

Hi everyone! I am new to this website and I am looking for some advice and some wisdom. I have been a nurse for 5 1.2 years  on the night shift and have been working on my current unit since day one. I work on a women's care unit, where we take care of post-partum patients, newborns, and GYN patients surgical or non surgical. We used to take care of ante-partum patients for years but sadly they took that part of our unit away and have given those patients to labor and delivery. I used to love my job, enjoyed my patients,  my coworkers  for the most part. Of course it had its days but more recently I've found it difficult. Working night shift has taken a huge toll on my body and my mental health. I tend to fluctuate between loving night shift and hating it. My manager is absolutely awful, shes not personable, shes malicious, judgemental and vindicitive. I am thankful for night shift where I only have to see her for 30 minutes maximum in the mornings. I have found the politics (not actual politics) but the vibe of the work environment a huge struggle between the knit picking of admins, management and even coworkers is unbearable some days. we have been canceling on my unit at drastic rates and I basically work part time at this point. I have found myself searching for new jobs, hoping for a day shift regular basic hours. I have interviewed and shadowed at ambulatory oncology breast center and I thought I was going to love it, but I'm just not sure if ambulatory nursing is for me. I cant tell if its because I'm scared of change, or leaving what I know, but I just cant figure out whats best for myself anymore. after shadowing I find myself feeling like I'm not ready to leave the bedside yet, but also what if I am and I don't know it? the ambulatory oncology breast center job includes me following a specific provider and their practice and covering their patients, the nurse I worked with was overwhelmed so I did not really get a full scope of what she does except for returning phone calls, emails and triaging over the phone and providing first time chemo patients an hour long education session. after I left my shadow I left feeling this may not be the right fit for me? I have always had a passion for cancer patients I took care of my grandfather who had end stage pancreatic and liver cancer, so I have always felt this particular way about caring for those types of patients. but also at the same time I love moms and babies too, its just so confusing. I'm not sure where I fit anymore in my nursing passion/career. I feel like I need a change of pace, maybe more challenging ? or maybe something with normal hours? I'm not sure what I'm asking here, but anyone who has experience working in this kind of setting, if you have any advice or words of wisdom that would be great. do you regret leaving bedside nursing? what exactly do you do as a "clinic" nurse? just any insight would be great. thanks