I'm getting discouraged and it seems my allnurses silent lifeline might be able to help. As many others, I have been reading posts for months looking for general advice and enjoying the stories. It's my turn to tell mine and ask for help, support or maybe just a knock on the head.
I moved to Raleigh about 10 months ago. My husband and I were expecting our first child and things were looking tough up North. I was able to transfer, we put the house up for sale and hoped for the best. The house still has not sold but he moved here in December. That's another story that is causing me stress and probably why I'm so discouraged now. I just need one thing to work so I'm trying to focus on school.
My sad school story in a nutshell. I was raped the summer before freshman year at an Ivy League school. I didn't report it right away because it was a distant family member. Keeping that secret for many years caused me a lot of trauma to say the least. The relevancy now is that it deeply affected my grades and after 2 years I was kicked out. Second, it also gave me a new goal in life to work in a field that benefits women and children.
I have taken a long route to get to where I am today with many attempts to go back to school. I was later diagnosed with ADHD, which also explains some of the difficulties I first had in school. As things stand now, I have about 90 completed credits, not all very good, in business and women's studies. My pre-reqs are good though. I just finished A & P II with a 96% and am finishing Abnormal Psych with a 95% so far.
I am limited in my school options due to financial restraints, schedule and previous grades. I don't really know my overall gpa. My last gpa was 3.12 but was lowered due to a class I forgot to drop (ADD kicks in) and I got an F, that does not include my 2 current classes.
I was really motivated with the 2 classes I was taking, getting good grades, working full-time, being a mom to a baby and a teen. But this last week, I'm drained, I can't sleep, I keep thinking about the possibility of a foreclosure on our other house, on how I will continue to work and go to nursing school and most importantly that it doesn't look like I'll get into nursing school this Fall. My Ab Psych class ends too late and I'm still not a registered CNA in the state. Durham Tech requires this by June 15. This means I have to wait another year with nothing to do but wait. I'm almost 40 with no degree, no potential of getting one soon, 90 credits of nothing and deluding myself into thinking that I'll get in to any nursing school, let alone every getting into Duke's MSN. I have no idea how I would even pay for it but was hoping to do the 2-year commitment.
I have one more week of psych and am trying really hard to finish it with an A. I'm just so discouraged. I don't really like my job but am very grateful for it. It just gets harder and harder to come in when I'd rather be working in a hospital or better, being a nursing student. I don't even know how I'd do clinicals and work full-time in the day but we need my paycheck and I'd figure I'd worry about that later. I just want to get into nursing school. I want to feel like I'm moving forward, finally getting a degree in something I love. I guess I'd make it through another year. It's just that today, this week, I'm tired and feeling hopeless.
Is there any hope for Fall admission to Durham tech? I'm only missing the CNA and Net test but I'm sure I'd do fine on it. I was planning on challenging the CNA but it doesn't matter since I missed the deadline. I thought maybe I could do an LPN but it seems like a waste since I'd only be accumulating more credits and not really saving any time. Any advice from anyone? Thanks for reading.
So sorry to hear about your husband's job:eek: What line of work is he in? Hopefully something will come up for him soon. I know how hard you have been working towards this, it would be a shame if you would have to put it off longer. My fallback plan is UNC, but I still haven't done much towards that yet. Im just trying to be patient for now too.
Everyone experiences obstacles whether they are physical or experiential. Don't dwell on what was. Just determine what will be, decide which path you want to take and create plan A, B, and C. One of the pathways will open up if you work hard and persevere. (Ex. I will be a nurse. I will apply to all community colleges within a 30 min. radius., I will apply to all ABSN programs in a 30 min. radius, I will research and enroll in 4-6 week CNA courses, etc, I will prepare myself to apply for 2011. I will be a nurse.)
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So sorry to hear about your husband's job:eek: What line of work is he in? Hopefully something will come up for him soon. I know how hard you have been working towards this, it would be a shame if you would have to put it off longer. My fallback plan is UNC, but I still haven't done much towards that yet. Im just trying to be patient for now too.