Ugh. I just can't shake the anxiety tonight before my shift. I've been off for three days, just utterly enjoying life and now I have to go back in. I don't know why I'm so scared, but it's always like this after I've been gone from it and off a few days.
I'm SO nervous -- like I'm afraid I will and have forgotten everything I've learned, that I'll get thrown into some new and terrifying situation.... I'm on the last legs of my orientation and I know they are expecting so much -- or it feels that way.
Yikes ..just can't shake it today. I even tried working out a bit to ease my nerves.
I guess all I can do is saddle up, get my sheets, sit down and take report -- then go from there. I always try at least to break it down to those first few steps: 1. Find assignment 2. Take report 3. Check charts. 4. Get VS and do assessments. But somehow there is alwyas something that throws it off. . .
Yikes. Deep breath.
Dang it -- what am I so afraid of??? I want to just slap myself out of it!!
Oh my, I am exactly the same way, I was just thinking about this actually. I just finished my second night in a row, but before this I had had 4 nights off in a row, which was great but I'm always terrified right before my first night back after being off a few days. It was so bad the other day I had to call my Mom just to try and calm myself down and not have a panic attack; I really hate it, and I've been doing this a year and a half and it hasn't gotten much better. I think I get anxious because I know I'll have a whole new set of patients and like you said, I'm scared of having a really bad night or of something really stressful happening like a code. But usually after the first night I'm not very anxious anymore...maybe because I'm too tired to be, lol.
beachgirl01
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Oh my, I am exactly the same way, I was just thinking about this actually. I just finished my second night in a row, but before this I had had 4 nights off in a row, which was great but I'm always terrified right before my first night back after being off a few days. It was so bad the other day I had to call my Mom just to try and calm myself down and not have a panic attack; I really hate it, and I've been doing this a year and a half and it hasn't gotten much better. I think I get anxious because I know I'll have a whole new set of patients and like you said, I'm scared of having a really bad night or of something really stressful happening like a code. But usually after the first night I'm not very anxious anymore...maybe because I'm too tired to be, lol.