HATE my job (vent post)

Hi everyone. I hate my job. I am extremely unhappy.

I got a job at a busy urban hospital on a med-surg floor at night. I was thrilled to have a hospital job as a new grad. The experience, in reality, has been terrible.

Patient load is atrocious. At night we routinely have anywhere from 6-8 patients. Sometimes I'll start with 7 and get an admission, other times i'll start with 6 and get two admissions.....it's a lot of patients with high acuities (many times we get patients and in report it will be "this patient was supposed to go to the icu but they are full so....")

First of all, the orientation. Excuse me while I barf. The "extensive" orientation was a grand total of 5.5 weeks....and I had to beg for the last week. Also, more than half my orientation wasn't an orientation as much as it was me doing everything while my preceptor did her homework for her BSN classes at the desk.

The vast majority of the aides are useless. There a few minority who are awesome at their jobs, extremely helpful and I can't thank them enough. Unfortunately they are outnumbered by the vast majority of lazy aides with very bad attitudes. Attitudes like when I say "hey i'm going to get pain meds for 22, can you take the patient in 20 to the bathroom" they tell me "no, you can take them after u pass meds." And I don't need a lecture on how maybe it's my tone or attitude toward the aides...no, it is not. I was an aide for over three years at a hospital and I did not do that and I have respect for the aides having been one myself!!!!

My nurse coworkers are...okay. The ones who are nice are awesome but they have such a heavy patient assignment themselves that they can't help anyone else. The mean ones are...well..mean.

I have been at the job for 5.5 months.

It has been terrible. They have already put me in charge with NO training. I didn't even know what responsibilities the charge nurse had and they were like "oh you are charge." This has happened three times. the first time I asked the day shift charge a few things before she left (what exactly do I have to do and where can I find certain things). It is terribly unsafe. One of the nights I was charge I had 7 patients and was charge...the other two nurses had 8 patients and we were short aides.

I have applied for an internal transfer on a peds floor at the same hospital...while I know that peds has its own set of issues and stress I love kids and am hoping that a patient population I like will help me like going to work.

I hate my job. My unit is always short of nurses. They have hired three new nurses on nights so I am quickly becoming one of the "seasoned" people.

I hate my job. I really hope I get this other job....I need something to look forward too.

Thanks for reading.