I am in my last 3 months of LVN clinical, and have done well till now. I am currently with an instructor who has long had the reputation of "making or breaking you" I just had my evaluation, and was very dissapointed in some of the things she said about me. I make excuses for not knowing answers, I'm too dependent on her, I need to distance myself from patients because I'm too emotional. I am not going to deny some of these things, but I feel that she made it sound like there were many instances of this happening than there actually were, and I was not about to argue! I did pass, and I have 3 more clinical sites in the next 3 months. I thought I had what it takes to be a good nurse, I don't want to work in a hospital, and told her so, my hopes are to work in a rehab or long term care facility because I don't like constant changes and I do like having patients for more than 2 or 3 days. I am so utterly disgusted with myself and the whole situation, now I question my intelligence, ability and character. I have 10 years of experience in CNA and HHA work, am I just not made to be a Nurse?!?! Oh, I was also told I need to work on my organizational skills.
Have I made a mistake? Am I being to hard on myself? Please someone give me some feedback!!!! Thanks, Dana
Apr 9, '05
hahaha, I have to laugh. I spend this entire last semester feeling the way you do right now.
I had heard the stories about him having "favorites" and the others making their lives hell. There were always atleast one girl who he'd make CRY each semester. It happened to my cousin last year. It happened to my fellow classmates last semester. And it happened to me this semester!
He used to say that I was unorganized and he'd find anything to pick on me for. But then a patient's family wrote a good letter to administration praising me for professionalism. Ever since then he's been nice to me and he found two other students to pick on. He's made both them cry.
So now I bet he feels like an *** for all the mean things he's done to me. I never expected one of my patients would write a letter. But it could not have come at a better time.
So keep on doing what you are doing! The patients will appreciate you for your kindness and empathy. Maybe who knows they will write a letter or something. And your instructor will 'eat her words'. You never know.....
Last edit by Nrs_angie on Apr 9, '05