Frustrated and undecided

[Nrw7005759]

Ok here I go. I'm 30 and I'm a Nurse Aide and a student. So I've spend my 20s trying to pursue nursing. It was been the most difficult journey. I have a learning disability that makes nursing school hard, and bipolar/ depressive. I took a hesi test that expired because I was trying to get things position for nursing school financially mentally All the Above. So I took a hesi perp program that was free and then took a hesi test that I failed. Passed first time failed second time. I'm struggling with if I should pursuing nursing again and if I walk away from it I have no idea what I'm going to do as far as a career. I've put in so much time and effort and I dont know what to do. I didnt imagine 30 like this. Confused and unsure. Its worst place. Now I feel extremely discouraged. Any more question do I have what it takes, did I ever have what a person needs to become a nurse ?Did I spend 10 years of my life pursuing something wrong? I'm 30 years old and sacrificed so much to try to become a nurse and I'm sorry but I don't want to sacrifice another 10 years. People that are nurses or nursing students what do you possess that I don't. Any advice please

[FutureNurseInfo]

Well, I am sorry you are going through some depressing times right now. I'd suggest that you first get your mental health in order. Seek counseling.

Once your head is cleared and ready to accept knowledge, you can study up a bit to take and pass the HESI. Yes, it will take time, but you are only 30, not 90 (though you do think like you are 90!). Do not think of 10 years wasted, think of 10 years that gave you invaluable live experience. Trust me, these 10 years will be very handy when you enter the program and become the nurse. Good luck in your pursuit of happiness!