Felony Charges, Need Help

[LPN85]

In need of help. Not sure if this is allowed but I am an LPN of 10 years. Was in an abusive 12 year marriage that ended up with me numbing the trauma and pain with pain pills. I stopped using here and there over the years but never really able to stop. I got into trouble 5 months ago with my employer (I was travel nurse). 

Admitted to diversion to police officer and had 4 Tramadol on me at the time. Was not arrested but charged with 1 count 5th degree possession and 1 count felony theft in amount of 5,000. 

I cannot afford a lawyer at this time and cannot get in touch with the public defender they assigned to me. Anyone else have the same legal issue as I do and what was the outcome? I cannot go to jail. I have a baby. I also lost my job but was able to get onto Suboxone with husband's insurance and have a chemical dependency test Wed. After CDT, I will be put into "rehab". I have been clean for 4 months now thanks to Suboxone and have never been more clear minded. 

I do feel like getting caught was a blessing in disguise and I feel so ashamed of what I did. I understand I have to face the circumstances and punishment for my crime, I just cannot go to jail because of my son. 

Any input would be nice, even just a prayer ?

As for now, the board has suspended my license until my court hearing is over. They have no evidence against me except for whatever my sentencing will be. 

[ArNurse33]

I feel like you need to self report this to the board of nursing and they will want you to enter into a diversion program. In my state legal charges have to be resolved before you can resume practicing again. Sending love and prayers. 

[LPN85]

ArNurse33 said:

I feel like you need to self report this to the board of nursing and they will want you to enter into a diversion program. In my state legal charges have to be resolved before you can resume practicing again. Sending love and prayers. 

The board was notified of the charges as the facility did an investigation after I admitted guilt. At this point, I really don't care to be a nurse anymore. I'm burnt out emotionally and physically and I honestly just want to stay out of jail if possible. I did speak to someone from our states monitoring program and she told me I would most likely not qualify due to the charges and due to the fact that the board has already suspended my license pending court hearing.