Feeling worthless kind of...

[newmommy26]

Maybe being stupid and simple and embracing the lack of uniqueness or specialness will make one day at a time easier. I mean admitting I am absolutley boring and just going to walk through this life uninteresting and that alcohol will not make me interesting permanently so why bother drinking it. i will still wake up the next day the same boring and uninteresting person. at least i have a job to go to and a job to do raising my daughter. That should fill up the next 18 years.

[UnaNayeli]

Hi, CS.

I don't want to be seen as trying to sugarcoat things. These are hard times you're going through, no doubt. Maybe you'll allow a gentle nudge here? That self-talk of yours is not too kind. Just like your husband and friends define their roles in this life and what makes them happy, you will now have the opportunity to do the same. It just takes some time for a woman to find out what that means in sobriety.

My own demons are a little different than your own, but someone once did me a huge favor by making me very aware of my choice of words. "I can't" became "I choose not to", etc. Stop and listen what you are saying to yourself about yourself? Then be a bit kinder. It's OK if it takes a few months to figure things out!