Hello all! First I will start with my background. I have worked in a variety of healthcare settings for the past 9 yrs since I graduated from high school in 2006. I always thought that I wanted to be a nurse. I always admired nurses and wanted to become one. I love being a caregiver. I completed nursing school in December 2014. I was so happy and excited to finish nursing school. I passed my boards 3 weeks after graduation. Once again, still excited about all of my accomplishments. I just remember seeing my name on my state board's website and crying tears of joy. Then I actually started working as a nurse. Sad to say, I have hated it ever since.
My first nursing job was in assisted living. I felt absolutely overwhelmed. I quit 2 days later. My second job was working in LTC on a rehab floor. I have worked there since February of this year ( I am still there). I hate that job too.I feel absolutely overwhelmed throughout the duration of my shift and this position is only PRN. The only good thing I have to say about this profession is the fact that I have been able to get so many job offers. I have my resume posted on job boards as well as a cover letter so I get a lot of phone calls about interviews and job offers. However, I am tired of trying to find the 'right' job.
I am currently still working in LTC at my PRN job and for the past month I have been working for a contracted government employer. By all accounts I feel like I should be happy and appreciative of all of these opportunities. I just keep listening to everyone tell me that things will get better in time. I'm still waiting on that day to come. I guess I just need some encouragement. I just don't like feeling like I want to break down and cry everytime I get home from work. What makes matters worse is the fact that I am 3 classes away from being able to apply for an LPN-RN bridge program that I was interested in. Should I even go on to become an RN if I don't like being an LPN?
I feel that nursing is stressful.I don't know, I just feel like my life was so much better when I was a medical secretary. I am always stressed about losing my license or being under so much pressure as the nurse. I have never been so stressed in my entire life. I actually enjoyed nursing school and looked forward to working as a nurse. Am I looking at things the wrong way?
